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Misc What is wrong with me, Should I get back on Benzos ?

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reyqaz

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It has been almost a year that i gave up cold turkey on diazepam, I used to consume about 100 mg in a day. I didn't notice any withdrawal, but what i think it has done to me is, even after a year, I have a terrible self conscious anxiety. It worsens when i forget to take my prescribed sertraline dose (50mg).
The clonazepam was taken off my prescription a few months back, but clonazepam didn't give me that diazepam feel, hence I didn't abuse it.

Just this friday, I had an outburst of anger on a friend and I regret it. Now those are the memories that are haunting me over and over again, its like another trauma I have faced, how do i deal with this?
Help is highly appreciated
 
Going onto anti-anxiety drugs is not going to solve the issue, sounds like you need to figure out what;s making you angry or anxious, and deal with it. Maybe it's your antidepressants.
 
Going back on benzos is just going to temporarily mask your anxiety, not solve it. And it is likely to just have you increasing your dose and left with even worse anxiety if you ever decide to stop or reduce your dose. I really think you should work on your mental health through non-drug means, for example some form of therapy (there are a whole bunch of types), self-help, meditation, mindfulness, lifestyle changes and so on. It's not easy or quick, but it is a far more real and lasting solution than just dulling the anxiety with benzos. If you absolutely can't function and need some help from a drug while you do other things to work on your issues, I would perhaps consider a non-benzo drug that has less potential for addiction and physical dependence. But I think even if you are going to use drugs for it it is very important to still work on reducing your anxiety through other treatments/methods at the same time and just use the most minimal amount of drugs possible.
 
How long have you been taking sertraline? You may still be experiencing side effects (?)
Missing your 50mg dose is not a great idea. I know someone who became a monster every time they missed a dose.
Sometimes we *do* lose it and act in a way that we regret later. Maybe it's nothing to do with medication, or any underlying mental health problems...just life and all its wonders and woes.
The problem with addictive drugs - we believe that all our day to day problems are caused by not taking them *and* we believe that taking them will solve all those day to day problems. That's the strength of the beast. But we're stronger...
 
Thank you all for taking the time to answer. I have been concentrating on breathing exercises and it seems to have helped me, also I guess the OCD I had is now gone, so maybe there is a certain part of my brain which needs training to face the new anxious environment ?
 
I'm so glad i quit benzos. Wasn't on a whole lot, i used to abuse them taking about 1-2mg a day of xanax, but in the past few months i've tapered down, and i haven't had any the past 2 days!

IMO benzos are the opposite of living life.
It really feels amazing. I probably couldn't have done it without the 3 scripts of hydrocodone and script of tramadol i've gone through this month.

Now i'm kind of scared to take much tramadol...don't want to have a seizure:/
 
aussie101 said:
Perhaps try gabapentin or something similar before going on more benzos
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I suppose gabapentin is a lesser of many evils..... but more and more now, the real story on gabapentin/neurontin is coming out. This may not apply to
all users of gaba, but many terrible stories of WD are arising, questions about how it impacts your sleep are coming up. The worst thing that I have heard is how long these effects can last. Some reports are months and years...and this a non narcotic drug. I am still taking it myself, but my sleep is all over the place and I am trying to see if this nausea that occurs may be from the gaba.
 
tramadol and seizures are messed up. i was up smoking a cpl gs of crack all night with this girl n she took 8 tramadol in the morning n seized out. crazy shit
 
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