swilow
Bluelight Crew
What do you guys perceive as being "goodness" or "right"? I've meandered my way to a very morally relative perspective wherein absolutism has become quite abhorrent almost. But I did something not so long ago, with right intentions and a sene of honour, that (retrospectively) was actually consistent with the typical meddling bullshit we humans do constantly. On my verandah, I have quite a few 8-legged arachnid brothers who basically just sit and LIVE in their webs. Smoking a joint, I heard that certain buzzing of flies wings, but the sound source was unmoving. The fly, poor creature, was mired with a spiders web, sheer panic and a desperate frantic need to be free informed its actions (to my anthropomorphic perspective), and the great spiderbeast approached... I knocked the fly free, it fell to the ground, unable to move due to the binding of webs and my attempts to help it seemed to kill it (it stopped moving as I tried to unwind the web) and the spider lost its meal. I wanted to help the fly, but I couldn't and my actions caused harm. But my intentions were "good"- weren't they? I wanted to help the helpless, to free the imprisoned- but really, I think I didn't want to be witness to death and so I interfered and fucked it all up... I played god and my moral vacuum sucked ass. 
I think about idea's of right and wrong and find them to be strictly human concepts. I feel like they are inventions of humanity and that no such constraints or categorisation truly exists in the universe. That thought fills me with both a sense of dread and a sense of possibility/freedom. Dread because I fear that most meaning/truth I have discovered is as fictitious as right and wrong, and freedom because maybe I can stop judging my actions and live well with no regret.
The spider was not committing wrong. From a broad perspective, the spider deserved its meal. Only I, the creature of that trinity that invented right and wrong, could be seen as doing some gravely wrong in that situation. Beyond me, these things don't exist. So I can't have done wrong. But it seems I did.
What is goodness? What is right?
ps. I ended up trying to put the fly back in the spiders web, but it was never touched and I didn't see the spider again.

I think about idea's of right and wrong and find them to be strictly human concepts. I feel like they are inventions of humanity and that no such constraints or categorisation truly exists in the universe. That thought fills me with both a sense of dread and a sense of possibility/freedom. Dread because I fear that most meaning/truth I have discovered is as fictitious as right and wrong, and freedom because maybe I can stop judging my actions and live well with no regret.
The spider was not committing wrong. From a broad perspective, the spider deserved its meal. Only I, the creature of that trinity that invented right and wrong, could be seen as doing some gravely wrong in that situation. Beyond me, these things don't exist. So I can't have done wrong. But it seems I did.
What is goodness? What is right?
ps. I ended up trying to put the fly back in the spiders web, but it was never touched and I didn't see the spider again.
