GentlemanLoser
Ex-Bluelighter
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- Jun 16, 2006
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I eleviate my minds tension by entering chemical eden again. It brutes out the riff-raff of negativity that is running amok in my head, but I know they'll be back.
I can't change whats been.
I can't change me.
I can't change you.
But what If? If we could go back and that time we spent was so completely something else that it would be a new story alltogther.
I wish I could change it.
Make every hurtfull thing I said disapear.
I wish I could reverse the stream, because I see now where it started going downhill. Could stop it. But you can't stop a river from going downward. Gravity is a bitch.
So was our demise like gravity, a constant that was inevitable? The apple fell on Newtons head, and your words that day crushed my ego entirely.
Now I'm back where I was. Unanswerd questions.
A chance to start over?
Or a chance to reapeat the same motions over again, and prolong the pain just a little more.
Because sometimes the pain is the only thing you've got, and so you hold onto it. Cling to it in desperation.
Chemcial Eden, I'm back. I left my common sense and history book at the door, I figure there is probably a seat here reserved for me, point me too it...
This pain is comforting. And I hate it.
If it was all different...It probably would have turned out the same.
All I gotta do is remind myself of that. But the more I say it, the less I believe it.
Wishfull thinking on my part.
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Ask Someone: Boxers or Breifs. If they answer "Breifs", you can beat them stupid, it's a narc.
~R.
AOL/AIM
hentari
I can't change whats been.
I can't change me.
I can't change you.
But what If? If we could go back and that time we spent was so completely something else that it would be a new story alltogther.
I wish I could change it.
Make every hurtfull thing I said disapear.
I wish I could reverse the stream, because I see now where it started going downhill. Could stop it. But you can't stop a river from going downward. Gravity is a bitch.
So was our demise like gravity, a constant that was inevitable? The apple fell on Newtons head, and your words that day crushed my ego entirely.
Now I'm back where I was. Unanswerd questions.
A chance to start over?
Or a chance to reapeat the same motions over again, and prolong the pain just a little more.
Because sometimes the pain is the only thing you've got, and so you hold onto it. Cling to it in desperation.
Chemcial Eden, I'm back. I left my common sense and history book at the door, I figure there is probably a seat here reserved for me, point me too it...
This pain is comforting. And I hate it.
If it was all different...It probably would have turned out the same.
All I gotta do is remind myself of that. But the more I say it, the less I believe it.
Wishfull thinking on my part.
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Ask Someone: Boxers or Breifs. If they answer "Breifs", you can beat them stupid, it's a narc.
~R.
AOL/AIM
hentari
