anna!
Bluelight Crew
I was thinking today about what I'd do if you were gone,
because I was watching Neighbours
and I know you hate it but I'll admit I looked over at you
and felt like crying for my loss in anticipation -
isn't that awful?
Probably I'd make the bed and feed the cats,
and watch TV in silent reflection and hug my pillow
and find things around the house that smell like you
even though they'd be dirty, and you stink!
I'd wear the necklace you always wear and probably play with it all the time
and I'd cry all my tears into your hankies and never wash them,
and they'd end up all crusty on the bench next to last night's dinner.
I'd make coffee in the mornings and I'd probably wait
for the rumble of the car as you come home from work
and I promise I'd visit and bring you flowers
and the three-legged cat would probably want to say hi too
although he hates trips in the car.
I'd visit your parents on the weekends and talk to your sister
and I might cry because she has your nose and your eyes
and she scrunches her face up like you when she's thinking,
and your mum would probably need a hug anyway.
I'd buy a nice frame for a photo of us to put next to the bed
and in the night when I woke up scared because your side of the bed was cold
I'd wrap myself in all the doona because you weren't there to steal it,
and I'd eat pasta for dinner every night just to defy you.
But mostly I think I'd wish you'd come back to hug me and kiss my nose
and complain about the mess and that we've run out of milk
because I couldn't bring myself to buy groceries on my own.
because I was watching Neighbours
and I know you hate it but I'll admit I looked over at you
and felt like crying for my loss in anticipation -
isn't that awful?
Probably I'd make the bed and feed the cats,
and watch TV in silent reflection and hug my pillow
and find things around the house that smell like you
even though they'd be dirty, and you stink!
I'd wear the necklace you always wear and probably play with it all the time
and I'd cry all my tears into your hankies and never wash them,
and they'd end up all crusty on the bench next to last night's dinner.
I'd make coffee in the mornings and I'd probably wait
for the rumble of the car as you come home from work
and I promise I'd visit and bring you flowers
and the three-legged cat would probably want to say hi too
although he hates trips in the car.
I'd visit your parents on the weekends and talk to your sister
and I might cry because she has your nose and your eyes
and she scrunches her face up like you when she's thinking,
and your mum would probably need a hug anyway.
I'd buy a nice frame for a photo of us to put next to the bed
and in the night when I woke up scared because your side of the bed was cold
I'd wrap myself in all the doona because you weren't there to steal it,
and I'd eat pasta for dinner every night just to defy you.
But mostly I think I'd wish you'd come back to hug me and kiss my nose
and complain about the mess and that we've run out of milk
because I couldn't bring myself to buy groceries on my own.
As for the labret, work won't let me have it anymore -sniff- so no such luck.
