i would call anything under once a month "abuse." sure, you may not perceive it as abuse, but the drug definitely abuses your mind and body, whether you notice or not. when i first started rolling, i would use it once every weekend for a few months. i thought i was invincible, but it got to a point where i was just exhausted mentally and i started to get very depressed and had depersonalization. i forgot what "normal" felt like, so i slowed my usage down to about once every month and a half. this went on for about a year until i just got tired of rolling. i felt like it changed my personality in a bad way. i could definitely tell that my serotonin was depleted and now i'm a very monotonous person. i'm not depressed, just that i don't get excited/happy very easily anymore. sometimes i wish i never rolled but i am grateful for a lot of my experiences and the way of life that mdma has showed me. i will continue to roll, but in a more sparing way. i want those nights to be special and with those whom i love and respect.
this year i rolled on new year's eve (hippie flip actually, it was quite amazing), and then i took my longest break ever. 8 months. every week i could feel my old self coming back. i could feel my memory, sleep schedule, mood, appetite, and serotonin all improving over the course of the break. it was very refreshing. then i went to an event at the end of august and took some mdma with a little bit of 25i-nbome. it was awesome to roll that way again and i could feel the empathy/love again from the mdma. those aspects had disappeared while i was abusing the drug.
it's not that using frequently is considered "abuse." it's the fact that mdma's positive effects diminish and the negative side effects increase with every dose when you don't let your mind and body recover. if you wait the 90 days or more, you can ensure that every roll will be just as amazing, if not better than the last time! you can rest assured that your brain will be at ease and you will be much more healthy overall. mdma is a special drug and should be treated with respect. those rolls are so much better when you can wake up the next day feeling on top of the world because you just had a life-shattering experience that will be remembered for the rest of your life. the love and empathy that only mdma can bring out of the deeper parts of you can only happen when your mind is running at 100%. when you chase the mdma high, it becomes pretty depressing knowing you will never reach it because you just couldn't wait. time is one of the only things that will strengthen your roll. the moment will come soon enough and you will thank yourself for waiting as long as you do.
just imagine how awesome that big rave would be every year if that was the only time you rolled. pick a summer and winter event to go and maybe throw in a camping/beach trip during the year and make those your only rolls. mdma has a lot to offer when used lightly. half a gram should be more than enough to last you a whole year. when you think about how mindblowing that possibility is, think about how bad it is to put half a gram in your body once a month...
i hope this helps someone out. i was ignorant in the beginning, as most people are, but surely there are people out there who actually listen.
peace & love y'all.