What drugs did to me, The biggest fight of my life~

[EarthBounded]

I'm on day 25 of withdrawl and just started to feel even the slightest bit of OK again, PAWS is whooping my ass, I cannot get energy and hope back ( I do little by little but it took three weeks ) I'm guessing I will be in PAWS for 3 months. I went Cold Turkey after winding up in the hospital OverDosed with heart damage.

I was taking these daily (the very bottom list is off and on but very frequent)

2000ug Fentynal
5-6mg Alprazolam
200mg Amp Sulfate (speed)
200mg Modafinil
150mg Armodafinil
20mg Ambien
300mg Lyrica
16mg Suboxone (off and on)

Ketamine, LSD, MDMA, Lorazapam,Cocaine ( Off and on still once a week for each of them)

I had to re learn how to Walk, Write, Talk etc...

I am lucky to be alive and have little to no brain damage. I got a clean bill of health two days ago.


This is my last chance to live

 

[Cosmic Trigger]

Wow you were really going for it. I wish you the best of luck letting go and living. You got a lot of guts going cold turkey after all that. Props to you.

 

[neversickanymore]

If you get the OK from the Drs. I would roll with the exercise. Start slow, think easy no aerobic exercise until you build up the neurotransmitter levels. Its also addicting so we need to also learn to moderate it. The addict from wilco ran his leg bones to shreds. What are you doing to address your addiction?

PAWS LINKS
Why We Don’t Get Better Immediately: Post-acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS)
Post-acute-withdrawal syndrome Wiki

Exercise and Brain Neurotransmission
Neurobiology of Exercise
Aerobic Exercise
Exercise 4 Health, Mental Health, and Addiction vs. The Endorphin Factory
Exercise 4 Health, Mental Health, and Addiction vs. I worked all that out
exercise and sleep

Chemicals and supplements to recover from opiate addiction
Diet & Neurogenesis


it is a powerful thing to keep our thoughts positive and here are some threads many of us use to help us do this.
Good things about being off drugs/getting sober
Share Something Positive from Your Day vs. It's All Around You
Today I Am Thankful For... Ver. 4 Infinite Chances in an Amazing World
Daily Personal Affirmations Log Vs IM THE SHIT & NOT a piece a.. not playing me. NOPE
Managing depressive thinking

Here is the mindfulness thread.
Anhedonia MEGA Thread

Hell of a thing to have one more chance

NIce work on the detox!