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What does heroin feel like?

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I'm not sure if this is the right place, but to anyone who has tried/has an addiction to heroin, what does it feel like?
 
Seriously? No one has answered this? Am I breaking some unwritten rule by being the first to break the silence? Are we afraid that we might make it sound too appealing and lead the poor poster down the path to destruction? Or no one can find words to describe it sufficiently? I'll do my best to share my own personal experience. The first time I did h I was surprised because I expected it to be more intense, like in the movies where they go off into some kind of dreamy, LSDish, slow motion kind of trip. Instead, it was more subtle. At first I noticed my limbs felt a bit heavy and I was very warm like when I drink. Aside from that I just felt entirely... content. I just leaned back, answered my boyfriend that yes, I was fine, and decided that everything was just fine. Everything. That's the thing. 20 minutes before I was drowning in anxiety because I hadn't hadn't done drugs in 6 years until the last few weeks when somehow I'd stumbled back into the old world of meth. It was not a place I'd ever wanted to go back to but I was brainwashed by LOVE and following the most beautiful person I've ever seen (including famous ones) into whatever mess he wanted to jump into. So there I was all filled with dread that I was about to lose control of my life and lose all that I'd worked for in the last 6 years, plus immensely self-conscious being near this man who made me feel like a nervous high school kid around him. (In fact, I was 37 at the time & he was 35-ridiculous) And somehow I found myself letting him give me my first shot ever of heroin - 2 firsts in 1. And then I finally relaxed. And understood why people got so addicted to this stuff. I was perfectly coherent & not all wasted & out of it - it wasn't very much, just enough. I just felt, more than anything, that everything was alright and even if something bad happened or some difficulty were to present itself that I could handle it. It was a huge relief. We spent the rest of the night scratching each other (it makes you itch like crazy, but not in a bad way,) and feeling good and kind of having sex. But since it made it hard for him to get,well, hard,and practically impossible to orgasm, we mostly just laid in bed touching, scratching, kissing and feeling good. It was probably the best time I ever had on h. The next morning I woke up and puked. And puked all day. Even water wouldn't stay down.
Now that I've made it sound good, let me skip to the end of the story. Now, when I do a really good shot I can get the itch still. Otherwise it just makes me feel normal. If I don't do any I start to feel absolutely wretched in a way I can't begin to describe. There are several threads here that will tell you about that. The beautiful man? We went through hell for the next year and it was the happiest time of my life. The only time that was better was the year BEFORE we started getting high. Next week will be the one year anniversary of the day I woke up and found him dead on the floor next to the bed. It was supposed to be my wedding anniversary just a couple of days later.
If you want to know what heroin feels like, take a valium. It's not the same, but close enough. Or jump out of a plane with no parachute. I'm sure it feels great to fly for 55 seconds... then you hit the ground. If you're lucky you might end up dead. If not, you get to be the one who lives with the guilt and the loss and the anger and emptiness and the hopelessness that is the price of heroin.
 
Normal.

Edit: Not just normal, but Able. Willing to live. Unburdened by pain or anxiety. Just, what most people already have.
 
carniegirl818 said:
Seriously? No one has answered this? Am I breaking some unwritten rule by being the first to break the silence? Are we afraid that we might make it sound too appealing and lead the poor poster down the path to destruction? Or no one can find words to describe it sufficiently? I'll do my best to share my own personal experience. The first time I did h I was surprised because I expected it to be more intense, like in the movies where they go off into some kind of dreamy, LSDish, slow motion kind of trip. Instead, it was more subtle. At first I noticed my limbs felt a bit heavy and I was very warm like when I drink. Aside from that I just felt entirely... content. I just leaned back, answered my boyfriend that yes, I was fine, and decided that everything was just fine. Everything. That's the thing. 20 minutes before I was drowning in anxiety because I hadn't hadn't done drugs in 6 years until the last few weeks when somehow I'd stumbled back into the old world of meth. It was not a place I'd ever wanted to go back to but I was brainwashed by LOVE and following the most beautiful person I've ever seen (including famous ones) into whatever mess he wanted to jump into. So there I was all filled with dread that I was about to lose control of my life and lose all that I'd worked for in the last 6 years, plus immensely self-conscious being near this man who made me feel like a nervous high school kid around him. (In fact, I was 37 at the time & he was 35-ridiculous) And somehow I found myself letting him give me my first shot ever of heroin - 2 firsts in 1. And then I finally relaxed. And understood why people got so addicted to this stuff. I was perfectly coherent & not all wasted & out of it - it wasn't very much, just enough. I just felt, more than anything, that everything was alright and even if something bad happened or some difficulty were to present itself that I could handle it. It was a huge relief. We spent the rest of the night scratching each other (it makes you itch like crazy, but not in a bad way,) and feeling good and kind of having sex. But since it made it hard for him to get,well, hard,and practically impossible to orgasm, we mostly just laid in bed touching, scratching, kissing and feeling good. It was probably the best time I ever had on h. The next morning I woke up and puked. And puked all day. Even water wouldn't stay down.
Now that I've made it sound good, let me skip to the end of the story. Now, when I do a really good shot I can get the itch still. Otherwise it just makes me feel normal. If I don't do any I start to feel absolutely wretched in a way I can't begin to describe. There are several threads here that will tell you about that. The beautiful man? We went through hell for the next year and it was the happiest time of my life. The only time that was better was the year BEFORE we started getting high. Next week will be the one year anniversary of the day I woke up and found him dead on the floor next to the bed. It was supposed to be my wedding anniversary just a couple of days later.
If you want to know what heroin feels like, take a valium. It's not the same, but close enough. Or jump out of a plane with no parachute. I'm sure it feels great to fly for 55 seconds... then you hit the ground. If you're lucky you might end up dead. If not, you get to be the one who lives with the guilt and the loss and the anger and emptiness and the hopelessness that is the price of heroin.
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if you do not mind me asking, how did he die?
 
Carniegirl818, i agree totally with your description of the pros and cons of H. And my heart goes out to you for your loss. My jaw literally dropped while I was reading. My alter ego goes thru W/D whenI am w/o any opi8s...as the addiction has been going on for almost ten years now. I too would describe my 1st time as nothing mind-shattering, but yet I wanted no other opi8 after doing it...most likely due to availability and cost. I am not and dont see me ever being an IV`r. I too, along with most likely any1 who is in the opi8-scene have lost far too many people around me, but yet, still continue to ride on this awful merry-go-round. Which makes me look back to the 1st time i popped some percs for rec use, and think if only it had more side-effects from the beginning, like a hangover from drinking (which i almost never do anymore) then, possibly i wouldnt have gotten so endrenched in them. But hindsight is 50/50, to not be too cliche! :)
 
You can go on reading every description on the planet about what heroin and other opiates feel like for a hundred years, but when that first actual hit kicks in you'll still be like, "... Oh."

Every word in the dictionary describing happiness will suddenly take on a whole new definition ... and years on down the road you'll wish to God it hadn't.
 
If you inject it you get this weird vinegar taste, then a really warm feeling starting in your legs moving up. Seconds after that, it kind of feels like cumming/orgasming and I couldn't help but sort of fall on the ground and all I could say was "damn this feels like rolling but better"....then about 5 minutes later the rush was gone and it just felt like I was on a lot of morphine (it was extremely sedating compared to oxy)
 
Eh i don't feel like writing a long post. It feels like.... everything in your life is great for the duration of the time your on it. All your problems vanish, but not only does it numb you out... it gives intense euphoria and pleasure! When you do you first dose of the day, as soon as it kicks in it feels like you are sinking a little. Next your body becomes really relaxed, you may even feel a little tingle in your legs and thighs. Now your body will start to feel kind of warm, like it is protected by some euphoric blanket. Any worries you had and anxiety you had is now gone, you are now in heroin land where things aren't so bad.
 
I'm not sure that this is the right forum for a thread like this one, but, y'know what, we'll just go ahead and keep it here I guess.

In response to the original question, well, I feel like people who have never done heroin and people who, when it comes to drugs and substance abuse, are somewhat naive or just not well educated, they have this idea that heroin must feel so unimaginably different from all other drugs and the "high" that heroin brings on must be entirely different and so much more intense -- it isn't.

I always thought that the "heroin experience" would be something like running through fields of lavendar naked with butterflies kissing me all over my body, just so much more, a million times more relaxing and sedating than anything else, but it wasn't anything like that at all. It was much like all of the other, more common opiates/opioids... oxycodone, hydrocodone, etc. I was very much surprised by its being so, well, underwhelming.

The best way to describe heroin and other opiates/opioids is that they make the world just a little softer. It feels like you've just gotten out of the bath tub, wrapped yourself in a warm towel, drank a nice warm cup of tea, and then found the most comfortable bed to lie in. In other words... the chair you're sitting in? A little more comfortable. The crick that you had in your neck? No longer there. It just dials down all the negative feelings and sensations and brings upon more comforting, warming, relaxing sensations.
 
@Carniegirl818. I teared up reading you description. I've never done heroin and will never do,but I was addicted to meth for 6 years. It was hell. I have been sober from meth for 4 years now. And i think of i would have stopped it would have killed me. Think you for sharing.
 
If you're going to ask what heroin feels like then I would also ask what heroin WDs feel like.

For all the wonderful floating-on-a-cloud feelings there's the other half of the equation which is an empty, soul-less void filled with pain, depression, and discomfort that is the withdrawal.
 
Heroin Feels Like

Emotionally: Absolute contentment. The knowledge (not feeling) that everything will work out okay.
Physically: Muscle melting relaxation. It kills pain. It numbs you. You float away.
 
It feels like going home and sleeping in your own bed after a long harrowing journey. I have OCD it quiets those feelings of anxiety and all my racing thoughts. It cures bad emotions and toxic feelings.

On the converse...the withdrawal is terrible. It brings you to all the "not yet" places you deemed yourself to strong or soulful to ever visit. It is the worst depression, fear, and anxiety visited on you by the worst most twisted spawn of Satan you will ever meet.

Basically it is very bottom heavy. The high gets weaker and shorter lived with each dose but the withdrawal gets worse and longer with each dose.

Bottom line...just smoke pot.
 
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