Morninggloryseed
Bluelight Crew
That's me. I nearly did myself in a year ago after 8 years of solid opiate addiction which followed somewhat regular use since age 14; I have been a regular opiate user for more than half my life.
I came home to my mommy and daddy and stopped opiates because they took me in and I respect them. I won't even get into the hell of withdrawing.
Slowly as time went by, I began to appreciate the extra money I had from not having to buy opiates, and definitely enjoyed never having to run out and being sick. Last month I had a tooth pulled, got some percocet, and noted that after a few days I was in WD...not intensely but enough to make me uncomfortable, sweaty, and appreciate sobriety.
Then today, had another dental procedure done and more percocet. Just a few hours later as the 10mg oxy wears off I am sweaty, nasty, uncomfortable, and I am very sure it is not psychosomatic. But I am in pain and somewhat traumatized from the procedure (I have intense white-coat syndrome and had a panic attack as I did last month) so I was looking forward to opiating myself and forgetting the whole day....but man I just cannot handle opiates anymore.
Sure, today I got a good feeling for about an hour, was mostly out of pain, but the comedown is very unpleasant (I never had opiate comedowns before).
What do others do? Is this lifelong? I am surprised after so long my body is not back to normal. Would you just grin and bear it? It seems like every pill I take sets me back again to when I was getting off this shit in the first place.
Well, that is all...just complaining to anyone who will listen.
I came home to my mommy and daddy and stopped opiates because they took me in and I respect them. I won't even get into the hell of withdrawing.
Slowly as time went by, I began to appreciate the extra money I had from not having to buy opiates, and definitely enjoyed never having to run out and being sick. Last month I had a tooth pulled, got some percocet, and noted that after a few days I was in WD...not intensely but enough to make me uncomfortable, sweaty, and appreciate sobriety.
Then today, had another dental procedure done and more percocet. Just a few hours later as the 10mg oxy wears off I am sweaty, nasty, uncomfortable, and I am very sure it is not psychosomatic. But I am in pain and somewhat traumatized from the procedure (I have intense white-coat syndrome and had a panic attack as I did last month) so I was looking forward to opiating myself and forgetting the whole day....but man I just cannot handle opiates anymore.
Sure, today I got a good feeling for about an hour, was mostly out of pain, but the comedown is very unpleasant (I never had opiate comedowns before).
What do others do? Is this lifelong? I am surprised after so long my body is not back to normal. Would you just grin and bear it? It seems like every pill I take sets me back again to when I was getting off this shit in the first place.
Well, that is all...just complaining to anyone who will listen.
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