Dtergent
Bluelight Crew
I am blessed with highly addictive behavior, which I have tried very hard to change over the past years. I have been mostly successful. Sure, I slip into binges every now and then (fairly recent, in fact), but I can pull myself out in a week or so.
The guidlines for me are the ff:
*Staying in balance, while aiming for clarity in mind with peaks of "blissfulness" or "numinous feelings" without the use of drugs. This has definitely gotten me to appreciate different states generated by the mind without the use of external substances (thus, without crashing or physical repercussions). I used to routinely use "non-invasives" (incorporated into the workday) downers to float on, uppers to get energy, and alcohol or weed to cure boredom. With a proper diet, the energy and clarity I get are amazing, and have exceeded altered states brought on by drugs. Deep slumber is better for me than a hazy drift into sleep.
*Putting context into my trips. This means hallucinogenics will not be taken carelessly, and I try to make the most out of them. Some mental and physical preparation is involved. As a rule, I no longer take "soft landing" tools (downers, marijuana) when I descend from my trip-- except massages, but those don't count. It teaches me to respect substances and create a learning environment for each trip.
*Listening to my body. I was discussing this yesteryday with my boyfriend. I'm really not sure if I'm more affected negatively by drugs now that I'm older, OR I don't use other drugs to cover up the crash, OR I'm just listening to my body more. At this stage of my life, it's unusual for me to vegetate in my room for a whole day, whereas as a younger person I would crash out and wake up a full day afterwards. Listening to the little aches and pains, the digestive disturbances, headaches, or mild imbalances allow me to make informed decisions. If I do a drug, I would really have to WANT to (and I do-- more often than people think). It would have to be worth it, because I never resort to painkillers or other things to "erase" the after-effects.
That whole lot being said, I don't have set limits, I go with how I feel. The time and place are both important, as are what I have to do that week. I dunno, now that I'm older, there have been numerous times that I am unwinding after a trip and thinking: I could have spent those hours gardening or just enjoying being alive
I hope to stick only to the natural stuff this year.
The guidlines for me are the ff:
*Staying in balance, while aiming for clarity in mind with peaks of "blissfulness" or "numinous feelings" without the use of drugs. This has definitely gotten me to appreciate different states generated by the mind without the use of external substances (thus, without crashing or physical repercussions). I used to routinely use "non-invasives" (incorporated into the workday) downers to float on, uppers to get energy, and alcohol or weed to cure boredom. With a proper diet, the energy and clarity I get are amazing, and have exceeded altered states brought on by drugs. Deep slumber is better for me than a hazy drift into sleep.
*Putting context into my trips. This means hallucinogenics will not be taken carelessly, and I try to make the most out of them. Some mental and physical preparation is involved. As a rule, I no longer take "soft landing" tools (downers, marijuana) when I descend from my trip-- except massages, but those don't count. It teaches me to respect substances and create a learning environment for each trip.
*Listening to my body. I was discussing this yesteryday with my boyfriend. I'm really not sure if I'm more affected negatively by drugs now that I'm older, OR I don't use other drugs to cover up the crash, OR I'm just listening to my body more. At this stage of my life, it's unusual for me to vegetate in my room for a whole day, whereas as a younger person I would crash out and wake up a full day afterwards. Listening to the little aches and pains, the digestive disturbances, headaches, or mild imbalances allow me to make informed decisions. If I do a drug, I would really have to WANT to (and I do-- more often than people think). It would have to be worth it, because I never resort to painkillers or other things to "erase" the after-effects.
That whole lot being said, I don't have set limits, I go with how I feel. The time and place are both important, as are what I have to do that week. I dunno, now that I'm older, there have been numerous times that I am unwinding after a trip and thinking: I could have spent those hours gardening or just enjoying being alive
