It appears to me that the most highly evolved Earthling creatures find being alive embarrassing or much worse. Never mind extremes of discomfort, such as idealists' being crucified. Two important women in my life, my mother and sister, Alice, or Allie, in Heaven now, hated life and said so. Allie would cry out, "I give up! I give up!"
The funniest American of his time, Mark Twain, found life for himself and everybody else so stressful when he was in his seventies, like me, that he wrote as follows: "I have never wanted any released friend of mine restored to life since I reached manhood." That is in an essay on the sudden death of his daughter Jean a few days earlier. Among those he wouldn't have resurrected were Jean, and another daughter Susy, and his beloved wife, and his best friend, Henry Rogers.
Twain didn't live to see World War One, but still he felt that way.
Jesus said how awful life was, in the Sermon on the Mount: "Blessed are they that mourn," And "Blessed are the meek," and "Blessed are those that do hunger and thirst after righteousness."
Henry David Thoraeu said most famously, "The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation."
So it is not one whit mysterious that we poison the water and topsoil, and construct ever more cunning doomsday devices, both industrial and military. Let us be perfectly frank for a change. For practically everybody the end of the world can't come soon enough.
My father, Kurt Senior, an Indiapolis architect who had cancer, and whose wife committed suicide some fifteen years earlier, was arrested for running a red light in his hometown. It turned out that he hadn't had a driver's licence for twenty years!
You know what he told the arresting officer? "So shoot me," he said.
The African-American jazz pianist Fats Waller had a sentence he used to shout when his playing was absolutely brilliant and hilarious. This was it "Somebody shoot me while I'm happy!"
That there are such devices as firearms, as easy to operate as cigarette lighters and as cheap as toasters, capable at anybody's whim of killing Father or Fats or Abraham Lincoln or John Lennon or Martin Luther King, Jr., or a woman pushing a baby carriage, should be proof enough for anybody that, to quote the old science fiction writer Kilgore Trout, "being alive is a crock of shit."