Space Frog
Bluelighter
i just found out today that a good friend of mine has recently suffered some form of drug related psychosis. it began when he started refusing to speak to anyone, was acting extremely agressively and showing signs of depression (or so i'm told cos he wouldn't speak to me). this progresseed to him receiving treatment at some hospital, and now he is missing. none of his friends have spoken to him for around 2 weeks and no-one knows where he is.
i guess what i'm trying to say, is that everyone of us knows this is a possibility, but no-one expects that it will happen to them or the people they love. as well as being upset and worried, i have found this to be a real kick up the arse. it really makes you wonder what the hell u are doing to your own mind and body.
we all know that we have the capacity for this in us and i'm sure we've all noticed small drug-related side effects in ourselves. i personally know i'm way more agressive than i was prior to taking drugs. whilst this could also be attributed to other personal issues, i know for sure that drugs have adversly affected my brain.
i'm not trying to imply that drugs are solely to blame for my friend's psychosis. there are of course a whole range of other complex issues that have undoubtedly contributed, such as a family history of depression, huge personal problems, and a highly strung personality. but as a heavy, poly-drug user it tipped him over the edge.
it's a sobering thought that our particular form of entertainment may be eating away at our own sanity. in hindsight i berate myself for not having noticed signs of this in him earlier, for not having been there for him, or encouraged him to talk about the problems that he obviously needed to deal with. it's easy to say i shouldn't feel guilty, but not so easy to practice.
so guys, look after yourselves and your friends, cos there all you've got, and u never realise just how precious they are to you until they go missing.
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"Today a young man on acid realised that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There is no such thing as death, life is only a dream. And we are the imagination of ourselves."
i guess what i'm trying to say, is that everyone of us knows this is a possibility, but no-one expects that it will happen to them or the people they love. as well as being upset and worried, i have found this to be a real kick up the arse. it really makes you wonder what the hell u are doing to your own mind and body.
we all know that we have the capacity for this in us and i'm sure we've all noticed small drug-related side effects in ourselves. i personally know i'm way more agressive than i was prior to taking drugs. whilst this could also be attributed to other personal issues, i know for sure that drugs have adversly affected my brain.
i'm not trying to imply that drugs are solely to blame for my friend's psychosis. there are of course a whole range of other complex issues that have undoubtedly contributed, such as a family history of depression, huge personal problems, and a highly strung personality. but as a heavy, poly-drug user it tipped him over the edge.
it's a sobering thought that our particular form of entertainment may be eating away at our own sanity. in hindsight i berate myself for not having noticed signs of this in him earlier, for not having been there for him, or encouraged him to talk about the problems that he obviously needed to deal with. it's easy to say i shouldn't feel guilty, but not so easy to practice.
so guys, look after yourselves and your friends, cos there all you've got, and u never realise just how precious they are to you until they go missing.
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"Today a young man on acid realised that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There is no such thing as death, life is only a dream. And we are the imagination of ourselves."
