Rotten
Bluelighter
Why do I/we keep doing this to ourselves. I just got thru reading a post from someone puking blood. This weekend, I've done enough to seriously still be hurting two days later. I can't even get anything off tabs anymore. I will wait two weeks, and still my tolerance is high.
This isn't what its supposed to be about. It started off as a bunch of friends getting together on weekends, and dropping together as a group. Now everyone is on such a different level. Its now a few people with drugs, finding some place to go, and do our drugs. There used to be about 30 of us, we would all drop at the same time, go to the same bar, and dance, hang out together. The numbers fell quickly. People getting busted. People paraniod that someone was a cop or a snitch. Then cola was brought into the group. Everyone started trying to make money off each other to pay for our habits. I looked like shit after a short period of time. I lost so much wieght. It was nothing to go thru a couple of 8s, and eat nothing but a tin of Altoids all weekend. I decided to take a break and slow down. As soon as I shut off the flow of drugs, my phone stopped ringing. People that I thought were my friends, that I saw everyday, were no longer around. That was a wake-up call for me. People that have known we for years, started wondering if I was a cop, if I turned them in. What the fuck?
My GF and I took some time off. We started looking better, and feeling better. We still do some damage, just not as often. I just wish it was like it used to be. In the beginning. Everyone is just on such a different level now. I miss how we all had the PLUR frame of mind.
I just needed to vent. I'm not sure if anyone will take any of this to heart, or even read this. I just wish I still had what I started with. I can wish in one hand, and shit in the other; and we all know which will fill up first. I just hope someone reading this that has not gotten to the level that I'm at, will think about it some.
I love PLUR. It just got away from that, and was about the drugs. How do I get it back to PLUR again? If anyone else is where I'm at or has been there, please give me your input. Now my life is really good. I just miss the old days. I'm not even sure I'm going to post this, I just needed to get it out. WTF, maybe someone will read this, and wonder if what they're doing is worth it either.
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You can't always get what you want...but if you try somtimes, you just might find, you'll get what you need
This isn't what its supposed to be about. It started off as a bunch of friends getting together on weekends, and dropping together as a group. Now everyone is on such a different level. Its now a few people with drugs, finding some place to go, and do our drugs. There used to be about 30 of us, we would all drop at the same time, go to the same bar, and dance, hang out together. The numbers fell quickly. People getting busted. People paraniod that someone was a cop or a snitch. Then cola was brought into the group. Everyone started trying to make money off each other to pay for our habits. I looked like shit after a short period of time. I lost so much wieght. It was nothing to go thru a couple of 8s, and eat nothing but a tin of Altoids all weekend. I decided to take a break and slow down. As soon as I shut off the flow of drugs, my phone stopped ringing. People that I thought were my friends, that I saw everyday, were no longer around. That was a wake-up call for me. People that have known we for years, started wondering if I was a cop, if I turned them in. What the fuck?
My GF and I took some time off. We started looking better, and feeling better. We still do some damage, just not as often. I just wish it was like it used to be. In the beginning. Everyone is just on such a different level now. I miss how we all had the PLUR frame of mind.
I just needed to vent. I'm not sure if anyone will take any of this to heart, or even read this. I just wish I still had what I started with. I can wish in one hand, and shit in the other; and we all know which will fill up first. I just hope someone reading this that has not gotten to the level that I'm at, will think about it some.
I love PLUR. It just got away from that, and was about the drugs. How do I get it back to PLUR again? If anyone else is where I'm at or has been there, please give me your input. Now my life is really good. I just miss the old days. I'm not even sure I'm going to post this, I just needed to get it out. WTF, maybe someone will read this, and wonder if what they're doing is worth it either.
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You can't always get what you want...but if you try somtimes, you just might find, you'll get what you need