what am i fighting

[cherub]

Can anyone tell me what i am fighting
I am almost about to give up
No clue or answer comes to me

Each morning wondering why do i wake up
or praying maybe i just don't.

it is not being afraid of my life
it is a matter of my life

I seem to fight each day
wearing me down alittle more each day

alone in the silent hell
don't bother to tell
some see, some worry
some have there little own opinions that make me laugh

some hurt

Still I can't fight what i can't see or know
it is hallowing out my soul
and emptying my spirit
slowly draining the inner most part of me

but,

what am i fighting?

what did they do to me?

when it comes to the tears they come alittle more often now
they weren't coming before i figured it was just a matter of time

now i am wondering, time? or is this it?
if it is , i dont' want it, i don't want to live with it anymore

Looking at faces and then looking at my own
I beginning to see it coming
sometimes hoping and praying
sometimes totally unemotional at all
already dead
dead inside

keep fighting or give up

 

[Rollingrrl]

keep fighting, honey.

this is a great piece, sometimes we all just feel like we're fighting a battle we can't win and/or fighting a battle we don't even understand. kudos on your amazingly insightful writing!

 

[bisKi]

you're stronger than you think, the fight may seem pointless, but you're fighting for you. it seems pointless sometimes to continue, but in the end it's all worth it.

be strong - you're getting there
xoxo

 

[haste]

You are a special person Cin, thats what your fighting for -cause there are many people who need and appreciate you as a person and friend

Hang in there *hugs*