I found myself spilling my guts to my mother the other day about my drug use and I still am unsure as to exactly why I did that.
I was overcome with guilt of my continued opiate use and slipping grades. I was also consumed by the fear of never quitting, and always being a total bum. My dream is to go to SUNY ESF next fall semester and get the hell out of my crappy little hick town where the opiate scene is ruining everything.
I am on day 2 of going cold turkey after doing about 10-15 5mg OC generics a day from my friend who got into a car accident and sells part of his script, or this vietnam vet who sells part of is script. I lied to my girlfriend about why I wasn't in school, but I hope it's the last lie I have to tell.
My withdrawals aren't that bad, just the typical watery eyes and sneezing. My mother is watching me like a hawk and she told me she doesn't trust me. The last time I went to out-patient for opiates I hated my group leader. She didn't know shit about life, and I had no respect for her. So I told her that I don't need to go back to there, but I would be better off just joining a gym or something.
I signed up to the YMCA, but I have yet to go.
My favorite singer right now is Todd Snider and a very close second is Oliver Wood of the Wood Brothers. I find myself nearly crying every time I listen to some of their songs. They are just so damn well written.
I was overcome with guilt of my continued opiate use and slipping grades. I was also consumed by the fear of never quitting, and always being a total bum. My dream is to go to SUNY ESF next fall semester and get the hell out of my crappy little hick town where the opiate scene is ruining everything.
I am on day 2 of going cold turkey after doing about 10-15 5mg OC generics a day from my friend who got into a car accident and sells part of his script, or this vietnam vet who sells part of is script. I lied to my girlfriend about why I wasn't in school, but I hope it's the last lie I have to tell.
My withdrawals aren't that bad, just the typical watery eyes and sneezing. My mother is watching me like a hawk and she told me she doesn't trust me. The last time I went to out-patient for opiates I hated my group leader. She didn't know shit about life, and I had no respect for her. So I told her that I don't need to go back to there, but I would be better off just joining a gym or something.
I signed up to the YMCA, but I have yet to go.
My favorite singer right now is Todd Snider and a very close second is Oliver Wood of the Wood Brothers. I find myself nearly crying every time I listen to some of their songs. They are just so damn well written.
