This weekend, I took mdma with a couple of friends, one of which had never tried it before. We all took the same batch of mdma. She seemed to react quite differently compared with my other friends and so I was wondering how common these sort of effects are, and whether others have felt similar things to her.
Firstly, the comeup seemed to be really slow for her. When with others we usually do balloons when coming up and really enjoy it, but after having one she started to feel really sick and light headed. We took her outside and got her water, and for a little while she really looked unwell and like she was going to pass out. She kept saying that she felt like she couldn't think straight at all and was feeling very "slow". I was just trying to calm her down and reassure her that the feeling would pass and she would be ok in a while (although I didn't know what was going on)...and thankfully it did. But then she just kept telling us that she wasn't "feeling it", that she felt happy but no more happy than normal and that maybe she had too high expectations. I didn't really get it because me and all my other friends agree that our first time on mdma was AMAZING, and although we hadn't built it up majorly, I did have expectations and it definitely lived up to them.
Anyway, I just tried to distract her and told her to come dance with us. Then, while we were dancing I think it actually started properly hitting her (so like...2+ hours after taking it?!). She suddenly started feeling really loved-up, and we carried on dancing and having a great time. Later on we went to sit outside and me and her started having a really deep conversation. We're really close friends and so it was very special for both of us, but even then, she seemed to act a bit differently from me and others. For example, I had this glowstick ball thing and a guy approached me asking if he could play with it inside. I didn't really want him to take it away in case he didn't give it back, and when he protested she suddenly got really aggressive towards him, telling him that he was trying to take advantage of my good nature and that he should leave us alone. She then explained that he looked like not a very nice guy, and that she wouldn't have wanted him to do anything which might upset me. In retrospect he did seem dodgy, but I've never seen anyone act that aggressively on mdma... We carried on our conversation but then it kinda went from us talking about our friendship and stuff we love to how she thinks her parents hate her, and then she started crying...it was such an emotional moment and not necessarily bad for either of us, but again, I've never seen one of my friends act like this. Certainly, I find it impossible for a bad thought to even enter my head, and although I feel very emotionally open it doesn't occur to me to share negative thoughts/experiences. However, even then she still maintained that she was happy.
When I asked her about it afterwards, she claimed the experience was "life changing" and that she thinks it's changed our friendship in a very positive way. I was really shocked by the fact that she cried...and just the general weird comeup effects and feeling like it "hadn't worked" for so long.
Also, an aside, but I was also wondering whether coedine and/or paracetamol can affect your roll. I took a cocodamol tablet about 8-9 hours beforehand because I had really bad wisdom tooth pain, and found that I rolled for much longer than normal. I also hadn't eaten much due to said tooth pain. Coincidence or could either of those factors have had an effect?
Firstly, the comeup seemed to be really slow for her. When with others we usually do balloons when coming up and really enjoy it, but after having one she started to feel really sick and light headed. We took her outside and got her water, and for a little while she really looked unwell and like she was going to pass out. She kept saying that she felt like she couldn't think straight at all and was feeling very "slow". I was just trying to calm her down and reassure her that the feeling would pass and she would be ok in a while (although I didn't know what was going on)...and thankfully it did. But then she just kept telling us that she wasn't "feeling it", that she felt happy but no more happy than normal and that maybe she had too high expectations. I didn't really get it because me and all my other friends agree that our first time on mdma was AMAZING, and although we hadn't built it up majorly, I did have expectations and it definitely lived up to them.
Anyway, I just tried to distract her and told her to come dance with us. Then, while we were dancing I think it actually started properly hitting her (so like...2+ hours after taking it?!). She suddenly started feeling really loved-up, and we carried on dancing and having a great time. Later on we went to sit outside and me and her started having a really deep conversation. We're really close friends and so it was very special for both of us, but even then, she seemed to act a bit differently from me and others. For example, I had this glowstick ball thing and a guy approached me asking if he could play with it inside. I didn't really want him to take it away in case he didn't give it back, and when he protested she suddenly got really aggressive towards him, telling him that he was trying to take advantage of my good nature and that he should leave us alone. She then explained that he looked like not a very nice guy, and that she wouldn't have wanted him to do anything which might upset me. In retrospect he did seem dodgy, but I've never seen anyone act that aggressively on mdma... We carried on our conversation but then it kinda went from us talking about our friendship and stuff we love to how she thinks her parents hate her, and then she started crying...it was such an emotional moment and not necessarily bad for either of us, but again, I've never seen one of my friends act like this. Certainly, I find it impossible for a bad thought to even enter my head, and although I feel very emotionally open it doesn't occur to me to share negative thoughts/experiences. However, even then she still maintained that she was happy.
When I asked her about it afterwards, she claimed the experience was "life changing" and that she thinks it's changed our friendship in a very positive way. I was really shocked by the fact that she cried...and just the general weird comeup effects and feeling like it "hadn't worked" for so long.
Also, an aside, but I was also wondering whether coedine and/or paracetamol can affect your roll. I took a cocodamol tablet about 8-9 hours beforehand because I had really bad wisdom tooth pain, and found that I rolled for much longer than normal. I also hadn't eaten much due to said tooth pain. Coincidence or could either of those factors have had an effect?
