thewayjoshis
Bluelighter
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- May 31, 2015
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I keep waking up in the middle of the night about 4 hours after i fall asleep and i literally cant get back to sleep until its time to get up. Its not because im wide awake though, in fact I am completely DEAD tired, tossing and turning all night until it's time to wake up anyways, which happens to be the only time I CAN get back to sleep. And as a result of this, I am dead tired, very depressed and anxious, cant think straight whatsoever, cant focus, and cant be productive in any way all day... Until It's time for bed!!! Yeah, once it finally comes time for me to go to sleep, i all of the sudden get this boost of energy that I should be getting during the day. I feel great and I just WANT to stay up and really never wanna go to bed. Another weird thing is that it happens in cycles. It will happen for a few months straight, then will go away for a few months, then come right back again. I only remember this problem first starting about 9 months ago, but then again, I barely remember anything at all anyways. In fact, memory loss is one my greatest weaknesses. So I wouldn't be surprised if I've been going through this cycle my whole life and don't even remember it.
It also sucks because literally NO ONE that should be able to help me understands me. They just say shit like "Oh, well it's normal and perfectly healthy to wake up in the middle of the night" even though I just explained to them everything I wrote in this post and it's like they just ignore it. And when I tell my doctor about it, he tries giving me all these meds to take at night that are "supposed to make me drowsy" so I can fall asleep, even though that's not my main problem. And even if it was, all these meds don't even help me sleep anyway so I just take benadryl every night. In fact, the meds he gives me aren't even FOR sleep, they're for shit like mood disorder, inability to focus, touretts, and a bunch of other shit. Ever since I got this new doctor, We've tried Trazodone, Clonidine, Abilify, Lamictal, Ziprasidone, and Strattera. Right now I'm only taking Lamictal and Strattera which won't even work because of how bad my insomnia is right now. I'm just beginning another cycle and I'm writing this post because I woke up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep, even though all I wanna do is sleep and definitely don't wanna get out of bed. I finally got the willpower to just get up after tossing and turning for an hour or so. I googled this problem and found nothing helpful. So does anyone know what the hell is wrong with me? Or how to fix this problem? You'd be making my next three months by helping me if you can, and any information/help is welcome and appreciated.
It also sucks because literally NO ONE that should be able to help me understands me. They just say shit like "Oh, well it's normal and perfectly healthy to wake up in the middle of the night" even though I just explained to them everything I wrote in this post and it's like they just ignore it. And when I tell my doctor about it, he tries giving me all these meds to take at night that are "supposed to make me drowsy" so I can fall asleep, even though that's not my main problem. And even if it was, all these meds don't even help me sleep anyway so I just take benadryl every night. In fact, the meds he gives me aren't even FOR sleep, they're for shit like mood disorder, inability to focus, touretts, and a bunch of other shit. Ever since I got this new doctor, We've tried Trazodone, Clonidine, Abilify, Lamictal, Ziprasidone, and Strattera. Right now I'm only taking Lamictal and Strattera which won't even work because of how bad my insomnia is right now. I'm just beginning another cycle and I'm writing this post because I woke up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep, even though all I wanna do is sleep and definitely don't wanna get out of bed. I finally got the willpower to just get up after tossing and turning for an hour or so. I googled this problem and found nothing helpful. So does anyone know what the hell is wrong with me? Or how to fix this problem? You'd be making my next three months by helping me if you can, and any information/help is welcome and appreciated.
