Sometimes we ask ourselves:
How much is too much and
How far can I take this?
Sometimes we ask ourselves:
What do I really want to do with my life? and
What am I doing to accomplish that?
I walked in my door at 8pm today.
After being gone all weekend.
And these questions won't stop
Running rampant through my mind.
Thinking back over the past 3 days
And all the insanity they held
I can't help but feel a huge sense of guilt.
Not that I wronged anyone in any way.
Just the knowledge of how irresponsible
I was and in retrospect, how stupid this
All seems to me now.
I can't keep killing myself forever.
I'm tired of shutting out that voice
That says over and over "You can't win
this race". I'm tired of all the politics
And bullshit that revolve around this scene.
I'm just tired.
As each week goes by I get more and more tired..
Faster and faster.
For once in my life.. I'm worried.
I'm not gaining age.
I'm forcing it.
And I can't do it anymore.
dave
How much is too much and
How far can I take this?
Sometimes we ask ourselves:
What do I really want to do with my life? and
What am I doing to accomplish that?
I walked in my door at 8pm today.
After being gone all weekend.
And these questions won't stop
Running rampant through my mind.
Thinking back over the past 3 days
And all the insanity they held
I can't help but feel a huge sense of guilt.
Not that I wronged anyone in any way.
Just the knowledge of how irresponsible
I was and in retrospect, how stupid this
All seems to me now.
I can't keep killing myself forever.
I'm tired of shutting out that voice
That says over and over "You can't win
this race". I'm tired of all the politics
And bullshit that revolve around this scene.
I'm just tired.
As each week goes by I get more and more tired..
Faster and faster.
For once in my life.. I'm worried.
I'm not gaining age.
I'm forcing it.
And I can't do it anymore.
dave
