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Jabberwocky

Jabberwocky

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I smoked weed every single day for nearly 16 years, from a young age starting at 13.

I always LOVED weed. It was my bread and butter.

However, 2 years ago I went on this reckless and insane psychedelic drug binge. Lasted for 5 months.

Months 1-2 were stupid amounts of LSD and DMT. Month 3 was LSD, DMT and Shrooms. Months 4-5 were almost exclusively shrooms.

I wasn't taking care of myself during this time, I was also drinking way too much alcohol but more importantly I wasn't SLEEPING. I had chronic sleep deprivation which would cause hallucinations. I think the sleep deprivation combined with the psychedelics did me in.

One day during this episode something in my brain completely snapped. I blacked out for 3 days. I ended up having severe HPPD for 4 months after this.

Eventually, my brain healed itself and I returned to normal. However, weed has never been the same for me.

Smoking just .1g of regular good quality weed makes me feel like I'm having a borderline psychotic episode. It feels stronger than 2-3 hits of acid.

I can't smoke weed anymore... which sucks. It's not fun anymore and is always uncomfortable. And I used to eat 500mg edibles like they were nothing....

I can still eat acid like a champ.... doesn't bother me and never got HPPD again. Just weed...


Anyone else have similar stories?
 
Pretty much the same story here. Weed sends me so far out now. Cannabis might be the strongest trip once those neural pathways are opened.

Just the other week after a big joint i was fucking lost all of reality breaking apart to spell out GOD in hyperspace.

Trying to find way to enjoy it again usually need to keep smoking more on top of a already heavy experince for some reason getting even higher than the situation can help out sometimes. But its good to keep your mind active on a task while high to try focus the energy and anxiety into something.

I have heavily abused LSD for even longer and went hardcore this year aswell due to covid-19. My daily life is extreme HPPD visuals that are a mix of DMT LSD and shrooms that are at times usually strong OEVs walls breathing and intense CEVS 24/7 like i ate fucking 3.5 grams of shrooms.
 
TripSitterNZ said:
Pretty much the same story here. Weed sends me so far out now. Cannabis might be the strongest trip once those neural pathways are opened.

Just the other week after a big joint i was fucking lost all of reality breaking apart to spell out GOD in hyperspace.

Trying to find way to enjoy it again usually need to keep smoking more on top of a already heavy experince for some reason getting even higher than the situation can help out sometimes. But its good to keep your mind active on a task while high to try focus the energy and anxiety into something.

I have heavily abused LSD for even longer and went hardcore this year aswell due to covid-19. My daily life is extreme HPPD visuals that are a mix of DMT LSD and shrooms that are at times usually strong OEVs walls breathing and intense CEVS 24/7 like i ate fucking 3.5 grams of shrooms.
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Yeah bro, the last time I smoked weed, a few months ago, I took 1 big hit out of a pipe. I started hearing voices and having visuals. I was like "maybe a shower will calm me down", so I take one and I was having a full on bad mushroom trip type experience. Horrible nightmare catatonic introspection. I got out and just layed down on my bed and was having crazy auditory hallucinations like the creepy sound from The Grudge movie. Fuck that shit.

I still have a bit of HPPD, but nothing like before. I was looking at an air conditioner today and the metal fans were moving like shark gills. Totally manageable though, nothing like those 4 months of hell I went through before.

Those 4 months of HPPD were honestly the most terrifying experience I've ever gone through. I honestly thought I had broken my brain. I would rather die than live life with a broken brain. It was horrifying!
 
I have not been able to smoke weed since my early 20's. One good bong hit induces a complete psychotic panic attack.

It happened during a time when I was seriously abusing cannabis. Something happened, and rather quickly.

It has nothing to do with psychedelics though. I can trip just fine still.
 
jackie jones said:
I have not been able to smoke weed since my early 20's. One good bong hit induces a complete psychotic panic attack.

It happened during a time when I was seriously abusing cannabis. Something happened, and rather quickly.

It has nothing to do with psychedelics though. I can trip just fine still.
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I wonder if there are any studies on this subject? Weed is so popular I imagine there are, but when I searched it I just find articles about weed triggering schizophrenia, latent mental illness and such... :/
 
real weed culture is about going deep and seeing the devil as joey diaz puts it. Cannabis is a super powerful psychedelic. With these high potency strains people need to take it easy without tolerance. Alot of teens simply don't know how to use cannabis in a psychedelic way so its been forgotten about. But cannabis by itself can induce trips that are even stronger than LSD or shrooms. Shit if you done enough psychs you can even breakthrough on weed in a dark room.
 
Hey,

I smoke weed since 23 years just for one reason:

Sleep.

Thats why I always searching for good indica grass to get a fat body buzz directly before I go to bed. I think truly I tried ALL sleeping meds because I have this problem since childhood. But 30 years ago, nobody knows about ADHD. Even now when I talk to Physicians they looked at me like I'm kidding them.

It IS existing, but changing in puberty when all hormons explode... So I searched and anytime I smoked a J with my friends - I slept like a baby and of course I wanted that again! So it started every few weekends, then every weekend, and since about 28 or 29 daily directly before going to bed. I never think of it during the day - it's just my sleeping med but ILLEGAL.

JJ
 
I'm not in a position where I am unable to enjoy cannabis anymore, but I am definitely a lot more sensitive to it than I was in my younger days. I used to smoke all day, every day; these days I tend to stick to a hit or two during the day, but smoke more heavily around bed time. I find edible cannabis more enjoyable during day time hours.
 
JoEhJoEh said:
I smoke weed since 23 years just for one reason:

Sleep.
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Oh yeah, my favorite hit of the day was the one right before bedtime. Always slept like a baby. Best sleep aid (and I've had a few scripts like ambien, lunesta, trazodone, etc). Those drugs have too many side effects, although lunesta wasn't that bad and wasn't addictive IMO (I was on it for 5 months and didn't have insomnia when I stopped).
 
SnafuInTheVoid said:
Oh yeah, my favorite hit of the day was the one right before bedtime. Always slept like a baby. Best sleep aid (and I've had a few scripts like ambien, lunesta, trazodone, etc). Those drugs have too many side effects, although lunesta wasn't that bad and wasn't addictive IMO (I was on it for 5 months and didn't have insomnia when I stopped).
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I know. I'd get EVERY sleeping med, also a lot of benzos for years! I tried everything, really everything. The fucking physicians do not care, NOT A SINGLE BIT. They would rather longtime prescribe me Halcion, Z-Benzos, instead of just accepting that i smoke ONE sleeping joint every day. NOBODY believes me, that I really so smoke ONE SINGLE joint directly before I go to bed.

But i was lucky. I have ADHD, that's where the sleeping disorder comes from, and I went to a specialist for adult ADHD. Very sympathetic.
First question: "Have you ever sone Speed?" I said no (not a lie), I was offered me often but I always told people that I'm like I took Speed when they took speed. The doc meant: "Oh no" - no I know - because of the Dopamine-problem we have. Next question: "Do you use Cannabis" and I said yes, since I was 16. It's the best sleeping med but it has to be an Indica-dominant strain - sa iva grass I dont even buy. When there is nogra't fss, i have Seroquel 100 mg wich works pretty well for sleeping but it feels so artificial. Grass is just nature and that's how it feels.

JJ
 
JoEhJoEh said:
I know. I'd get EVERY sleeping med, also a lot of benzos for years! I tried everything, really everything. The fucking physicians do not care, NOT A SINGLE BIT. They would rather longtime prescribe me Halcion, Z-Benzos, instead of just accepting that i smoke ONE sleeping joint every day. NOBODY believes me, that I really so smoke ONE SINGLE joint directly before I go to bed.

But i was lucky. I have ADHD, that's where the sleeping disorder comes from, and I went to a specialist for adult ADHD. Very sympathetic.
First question: "Have you ever sone Speed?" I said no (not a lie), I was offered me often but I always told people that I'm like I took Speed when they took speed. The doc meant: "Oh no" - no I know - because of the Dopamine-problem we have. Next question: "Do you use Cannabis" and I said yes, since I was 16. It's the best sleeping med but it has to be an Indica-dominant strain - sa iva grass I dont even buy. When there is nogra't fss, i have Seroquel 100 mg wich works pretty well for sleeping but it feels so artificial. Grass is just nature and that's how it feels.

JJ
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I lived in California, USA for 10 years and had my cannabis medical license. Was a godsend. Now I live in a non-legal state. Weed should be legalized worldwide.

I've also been on seroquel for sleep. Funny/messed up story, I used to go this boarding school for troubled kids/drug addicts... They handed out 200mg scripts of seroquel like it was candy to all these kids, including me, just so we wouldn't act up and behave like fools making noise all night. That boarding school got shut down from the state for abusing kids and other things.

In my experience psychiatrists are hit and miss, some believe you and are open minded and prescribe you what you need. Others have their head up their ass constantly staring at their license and think they know yourself better than you do.
 
I used to smoke lots of weed younger. Now days i only smoke sometimes when i'm alone and i know i can be alone. I don't really enjoy smoking it anymore. Fun thing is that i'll do hard drugs in blink of an eye but i will say no if you're offering weed. I just don't feel it anymore. I like being sharp, like being ready. It just makes my thoughts fucked up, makes me fat laughing motherfucker who can't do anything smart, but play video games and eat pizza. It's fun sometimes but ye, not every day. I have smoked 1 time this year.
 
SnafuInTheVoid said:
I lived in California, USA for 10 years and had my cannabis medical license. Was a godsend. Now I live in a non-legal state. Weed should be legalized worldwide.

I've also been on seroquel for sleep. Funny/messed up story, I used to go this boarding school for troubled kids/drug addicts... They handed out 200mg scripts of seroquel like it was candy to all these kids, including me, just so we wouldn't act up and behave like fools making noise all night. That boarding school got shut down from the state for abusing kids and other things.

In my experience psychiatrists are hit and miss, some believe you and are open minded and prescribe you what you need. Others have their head up their ass constantly staring at their license and think they know yourself better than you do.
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I don't like you anymore! You've got a prescription.

I would also get one because I'm German and living in Austria - in Germany you get a prescription because of ADHS, in Austria its still forbidden. I mean, read THIS: I COULD go home (Bavaria, haha, they are known to be very strict), have to find a psych, and WHEN i get a prescription I have to get a Schengen-Export-License - and THIS is allowing me to smoke this fucking ONE Jay in the evening. *** no pricing***. And politics wonder why I buy at a friend? FUCK YOU GOVERNMENT!!!!
 
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JoEhJoEh said:
\ in Germany you get a prescription because of ADHS, in Austria its still forbidden.
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They don't recognize it as a legitimate condition in Austria?? wtf...

I USED to have a medical cannabis license... It's still schedule 1 in the state I currently live in and people go to jail for it. The state I live in is incredibly conservative and blanket banned every drug, even research chemicals, under a ban of all possible drug analogues.
 
I stopped using cannabis at 25 after being a daily smoker on and off since 15. I had graduated university by that time but was completely unable to function, and had huge problems with schizotype hallucinations, paranoia, and anxiety. As soon as I stopped smoking marijuana I became alcoholic nearly overnight, which a very good freind warned me might happen. I'll save the alcohol story for later. Anyway, here in the present tense, I'm now some random middle aged guy who's sober and married with children. I ended up voting for legal recreational pot in my state even though at the time I hadn't smoked any pot for about 25 years. After legalization I eventually got around to trying it out again. I haven't had any problems with anxiety, paranoia, etc. since I started back, edible or smoked. I keep it on the light side though, no getting stoned, you know. For me its nice to have SOMETHING I can relax and catch a buzz with. Plus, now its legal!
 
SnafuInTheVoid said:
They don't recognize it as a legitimate condition in Austria?? wtf...

I USED to have a medical cannabis license... It's still schedule 1 in the state I currently live in and people go to jail for it. The state I live in is incredibly conservative and blanket banned every drug, even research chemicals, under a ban of all possible drug analogues.
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Jepp, unfortunately it is like that. But in Vienna i must say the police is very okay with grass. They don't even take your stuff away when you let's say 5 gram have in your pocket. And when a neighbour or anybody else want to criminalise me for one joint in the evening but self taking morphine or fentanyl because of an illness, then they should!!! I would not even call a lawyer because I can explain why I do this and I mean It is ridicoulus to get fucked by the police because of one joint....

JJ
 
JoEhJoEh said:
Jepp, unfortunately it is like that. But in Vienna i must say the police is very okay with grass. They don't even take your stuff away when you let's say 5 gram have in your pocket. And when a neighbour or anybody else want to criminalise me for one joint in the evening but self taking morphine or fentanyl because of an illness, then they should!!! I would not even call a lawyer because I can explain why I do this and I mean It is ridicoulus to get fucked by the police because of one joint....

JJ
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I guess drug law in EU is just as diverse as in the US states. I've been to Britain, Ireland, Spain, Germany, Netherlands (Amsterdam), France and the Czech Republic. I scored weed and sometimes other drugs in half of those countries.

I loved Spain and Amsterdam, some of the most friendly people I've ever met! London was cool, too. I hated France, apparently they hate Americans (can't really blame them that much).
 
SnafuInTheVoid said:
I guess drug law in EU is just as diverse as in the US states. I've been to Britain, Ireland, Spain, Germany, Netherlands (Amsterdam), France and the Czech Republic. I scored weed and sometimes other drugs in half of those countries.

I loved Spain and Amsterdam, some of the most friendly people I've ever met!
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Everyone in politics is taking Cocaine (not everybody, but a l ot of them - go to the bathroom in the parliament and wait for 5 minutes..... ) but they don't let me smoke my joint for sleeping?

WHERE THE FUCK ARE WE???

JJ
 
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