I woke up this morning and did a line, I said now it's time to feel so fine, and kill some time, and write a rhyme
They say I crossed the line, sleepin' and eatin' on phets, I say it's to help, but it's a lie like the rest
I'm trying to escape the pull of the hole, drinkin' and sniffin' just to find some hope in my heart
I'm desprate for progress, a small bit of change, any at all, but it seems out of my range
I just want some freedom, maybe a check and a home, but it seems all i'm in for is games
I think about quitting, and saying goodbye, but I'm afraid of that way, so instead I get high
I'm troubled and trapped, bricked up and burdened, but I've never been petty, and I've always been sly, so there's no reason to drop out and post up in the sky
I don't want pity and I don't need your understanding, but if you're going to slow me, I'll need you understanding, I won't keep you close, and i'll push you away
I've never written verses, and sure I wish I was Trae, but i'm just a kid whose lookin' for his day
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I tried in school, but I lost my drive, I never understood why I took the dive
Now looking back I see I was foolish, stupid and young, nothing more than a doofus
I skipped studying to sneak out and smoke, see me coming home that morning, still drunk as a joke
I needed a sign, a warning to stop, but all I wanted was what the big kids got
It seemed like alot, cars, money, and whatnot
in the end I was wrong, it was trouble and strife, jail time and probation, kids with no wife
Overdose, sickness and the loss of a life, wait a sec, now I don't think that's right
I looked up to them then, and in ways I still do, but my road was mangled, without a re-do
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When I get out of my head, the world seems big, and it never slows down
I wish I had the wisdom to live in the town
I never planned for this, and I'm aware of the risks, living a life a mere two steps from the sticks
I never thought I'd end up here, I never saw the truth, even the goodhearted and witty can get dealt a hand that's shitty
I don't know how i'll cope, maybe schooling or dope
But my life isn't mine for me to take away from the world, I suppose those close to me now are at the ones at stake
I have no right to cut a hole in their hearts, over my fucked up mistakes
I'll try I suppose, and i'll give it my best, but life's been at it longer, might even lay me to rest
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I'm different, whatever, I'm cool, whatever
You think I have potential? That's a goddamn lie
I ride the waves as the deep sea presents them, I try to survive, and not grow to resent them
They say I crossed the line, sleepin' and eatin' on phets, I say it's to help, but it's a lie like the rest
I'm trying to escape the pull of the hole, drinkin' and sniffin' just to find some hope in my heart
I'm desprate for progress, a small bit of change, any at all, but it seems out of my range
I just want some freedom, maybe a check and a home, but it seems all i'm in for is games
I think about quitting, and saying goodbye, but I'm afraid of that way, so instead I get high
I'm troubled and trapped, bricked up and burdened, but I've never been petty, and I've always been sly, so there's no reason to drop out and post up in the sky
I don't want pity and I don't need your understanding, but if you're going to slow me, I'll need you understanding, I won't keep you close, and i'll push you away
I've never written verses, and sure I wish I was Trae, but i'm just a kid whose lookin' for his day
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I tried in school, but I lost my drive, I never understood why I took the dive
Now looking back I see I was foolish, stupid and young, nothing more than a doofus
I skipped studying to sneak out and smoke, see me coming home that morning, still drunk as a joke
I needed a sign, a warning to stop, but all I wanted was what the big kids got
It seemed like alot, cars, money, and whatnot
in the end I was wrong, it was trouble and strife, jail time and probation, kids with no wife
Overdose, sickness and the loss of a life, wait a sec, now I don't think that's right
I looked up to them then, and in ways I still do, but my road was mangled, without a re-do
------
When I get out of my head, the world seems big, and it never slows down
I wish I had the wisdom to live in the town
I never planned for this, and I'm aware of the risks, living a life a mere two steps from the sticks
I never thought I'd end up here, I never saw the truth, even the goodhearted and witty can get dealt a hand that's shitty
I don't know how i'll cope, maybe schooling or dope
But my life isn't mine for me to take away from the world, I suppose those close to me now are at the ones at stake
I have no right to cut a hole in their hearts, over my fucked up mistakes
I'll try I suppose, and i'll give it my best, but life's been at it longer, might even lay me to rest
------
I'm different, whatever, I'm cool, whatever
You think I have potential? That's a goddamn lie
I ride the waves as the deep sea presents them, I try to survive, and not grow to resent them