I was thinking outload and prob on a stim. So I don't really want to reread it and criticize every point, but i will say that reality is just complex and often people "react" too harsh to experience.
Like a person will have experiences that seemed bad for them personally so they go radically in the opposite direction with some overconfidence. I try to not be like that, my thinking is fluid, i don't care about being correct etc.
I do feel like my process for thinking seems pretty advanced compared to most people, I remember many years of always wanting to "pick sides" for things I personally liked, like the urge to always defend psychedelics in front of people who have old views/don't know much. It reminds me of Trump supporters or even the more 'woke' leftists, when they talk they are often not speaking objectively - people want to defend themselves, defend their favorite stuff. At some point in my 30s i realized the error in doing this results in a "low resolution" picture of reality. Low dimentional, too simplified. I see how engineers speak about things, or experts in certain fields, they will speak in trade offs, objective things, not hiding the bad parts. This may actually be good sometimes, when in the process of trying to legalize drugs. IDK, shits complicated.
I’ve had way better results from using judicious doses of psilocybin to self-medicate depression than I ever did from any SSRI, and I’ve been on most of them. That being said: Prozac was a genuine lifesaver for me for a while. It didn’t make me happy, but it did make me…not suicidal, yknow? But true happiness is YOUR job, not the drug’s. YOU have to step up and do the work if you want to be happy. The most any drug can do for you is just keep you alive until you’re able to do that.
I don’t like or trust Big Pharma, myself. It was mind-blowing to me when I realized that they don’t actually know how these drugs work; they’re just prescribing them and hoping for the best. But I talked, real talk, to one of my psychiatrists once, and they said: “what else do you want us to do? If you go to someone with a medical background, they’re going to prescribe you a pill. We as doctors don’t have anything else we can really do to help; if it’s not a pill or a treatment, how do you want us to help you? Doctors WANT their patients to stay alive, and they can see by the research that more patients remain alive after a 5-year period if they’re prescribed anti-depressants, as opposed to doing nothing. So of course they’re going to recommend you take the medication.” (I’m vastly paraphrasing but this was the gist.) it made me rethink it: I don’t think psychiatrists are evil, mostly they got into the medical field to help people. They must feel so helpless when a patient tells them that they want to commit suicide, or, worse, acts on it or does other things that endanger their own lives, ON PURPOSE. So they’re going to look at the numbers and say “this person MAY be better off if I prescribe xyz, it’s worth a shot.” So I don’t blame them anymore. Ultimately, it really IS up to us to turn our lives around if we have mental health issues; and if you don’t think they’re helping then what are you even going to a psychiatrist FOR?
My mind is consistently blown over and over, realizing I just happen to know a LOT more than many experts in many fields, even just me.. being passionate about some things. I run into it often. I am not going to just assume i'm some genius or that "welp, if I am a true expert in these 4 things, it must mean I am smarter and know more than every expert everywhere!" like a lot of people do. But I am in my 40s now realizing that tons of people everywhere really do seem to be dumber than me BUT they have this weird over-confidence. I have a self esteem problem and am always like "what? naaaw.. i can't know more than these people who went to hardcore expensive school for 6 years.. what?" Being humble keeps me sane and keeps me always questioning what I know - which seems better than people with over-confidence and obsession with defending their huge egos. They get paid too much though.
Hasn't it been proven over and over that shame does nothing but hurt users?
Actually I think reality is more complex - I just recently "discovered" this life hack/fact, where usually reality is: some people do react positively to shame, some don't. The percentage might be 80% don't react well/hurts them but maybe 20% react good. I think as long as humans keep science at the forefront of how they understand reality, data will trickle in as time goes on, and we will fully understand all this stuff.
To the OP,
You Think Too Much.
Yeah, usually. But there are good things that come from it, like a algorithm having much more time to process things. Trade offs of being stuck in my head and wasting too much time thinking.
Isn’t it “the difference between medicine and poison is the dose”?
I realized some time in the last decade that sometimes those common sayings are mostly correct but sometimes, its viral and just sounds good and gets repeated so often everyone assumes its true without checking the data.
