Mushrooms were my first psychedelic and changed my life dramatically... my experience was so powerful. It was like waking up out of a dream, but the dream was your physical life, and it's like when you wake up from a dream in this life, and you try to remember it but it fades and you only remember some details. But the details are unimportant because you realize that you are a spiritual being who has been existing for eternity, in this amazing state of connectedness. It blew my mind because I had somehow forgotten that I am a multidimensional entity that is the force of awareness of all of life on the planet, or perhaps the universe. And somehow you had forgotten in this dream that you thought of as life up until right now, and you realize that you've always been here and you always will be here, and it seems impossible that you could ever forget it again.
This experience changed my life so much because once you experience that, you can't unexperience it. I had been an atheist, believing in nothing, and it instantly set me on a new path of self-discovery and awareness, a way in which everything seems different and so much richer. It set me on a path of love for others. I may have difficulties living my life the way I know I should sometimes, but I always have what I experienced and came to understand always there at the core of myself so that I could never go back to the way I thought and understood and perceived things again.
I won't lie, this can be frightening or overwhelming at the time. For a year or two I was on cloud nine after my experience, and then real-life responsibilities increased and I went into a period of self-doubt and anxiety for a couple of years, where I felt like things would be easier if I just hadn't had that experience. When I found Bluelight and was able to finally talk about my experiences with people, instead of holding it inside because no one understood, I was able to come to peace with it and I wouldn't go back for anything.
