SUPRISE SURPRISE yes she just called, i have just spoken to her, i asked her why she said they couldn't help me, i did listen to her blab on about who could benefit from their help blah blah, she hadn't said they couldn't but it was her opinion etc etc.....so i ask her what then in her opinion after our session and listenning to me and her paper of notes from my doctor did she think was wrong with me....she did not want to answer that...i could tell i was not going to get any useful information out of her so i then move onto the fact that i'd been thinking about what she had said about living a healthy lifestyle and that her suggestions meant me going out to do that and i am aggrophobic to which she interrupted and said i wasn't as i came to the session i replied yes i had come with my mother as i find leaving my house very hard and if it were that easy to live a healthy lifestyle then why is she overweight as she could do with losing weight and benefit from a group therapy place such as weight watchers so that she could have support from other fat people like herself, she said if i were to continue to be rude she would put the phone down...i said i am making a point here that if it were that easy to live a healthy lifestyle then i would not be going to my doctor desperate for help and her refer me to a session that i thought would be the road to recovery and whilst there i feel i did not manage to cover the fact that i have suffered from many eating disorders over my life after my father had been banned from seeing both me and my brother as kids and this caused me to balloon in weight but i felt that i had been unable to say that to her for fear of offending her due to her size, so i am pointing out that it is all very well telling somebody the obvious, i do not need to be told what i need to do that is healthy it is having the tools to be able to do them which i had high hopes in the session being the start of when in fact it wasn't the start of anything......there was a long silence on the other end....i wonder if i had made her cry as it took a very long time for her to come back with a short and different toned response to all that...and that was something along the lines of that i had made my point....and i had thought about ending things by calling her a fat useless cunt but refrained as i felt that i had caught her off guard just enough to drive something home to her that she wil now be stewing over a great long time....even lose sleep over because my delivery was fluent and without swearing or raising my voice, if i had shouted cunt at the end it would have ruined everything and she could have come away feeling superior but my speech was spot on target and i know i hit a nerve.
FUCK ME I FEEL A BIT BETTER NOW
FUCK ME I FEEL A BIT BETTER NOW
