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Heroin Want to still use H occasioanlly

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horses1010

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Hey everyone, I m not sure where to post this. Just wanted to vent a little. I basically never became seriousally addicted to heroin, although I experienced minor withdrawals. I was doing it like twice a week , three times a week. It was still fun for me, it still is. I downed vodka with it, something that made me more high. however, my familys fed up with me, im facing legal problems because of driving after I snorted two bags and they pulled me over because I had a cracked windsheild and noticed my eyes. I went to rehab to appease my family and the judge. Theyre offering me jailtime or three years of drug court basically. I think I can choose the jailtime, it would be like a year, and get it over with, or live with drug court for THREE YEARS and jailtime for a few moths. anyway, that's probably like five months away. im hating life right now, I cant drive, so mommys taking me everywhere. im 32, look and feel like im a 23 year old girl. my bf who was my drug buddy, is now in jail for a dwi, getting out in a few weeks. he thinks we're gonna get back together, but everyone hates him, he introduced me to heroin and crack, which afterwards my life when spiraling down real quick. but it was my choice, not his. I understand that. I love him to, but hes just so wrong for me. getting back with him is just bad. hes abusive and now lost his job, has no car, has no phone, nothing. he was munching off of me the past two years because I wont a settlement and had money. but again, I am headed for jail I have much more to worry bout then him right now. but back to the heroin. I still want to use, I snort it, and I enjoy it, and I just don't feel READY to stop. its so bad. I just want them to leave me alone, let me do my thing. life is ok if I use, only if I kept it to once a week of course. I know once u start doing it it more often im sure it can become hell. I know al about heroin and I was close to at the point where I would do anything for the drug. so I know how bad it can get if it gets out of control. I just am happier using here and there if i could, then not using at all. but it definitely brings depression, extreme tiredness and apathy, no motivation, for like two days after a single use. definitely.
 
Don't do it, at least until you get your life together. If you need an occasional escape smoke weed, with H it's just not worth the addiction potential
 
Use kratom! Using dope 2-3 times a week turns into dependence daily use quicker then you can say "fuckimadopefiend"
 
Drug court is not that bad but you have to be able to stay clean. Is this your first offense? Three years sounds harsh but if you do well and pass all the requirements, you can graduate early. That way your record looks better. But if you honestly want to keep using then take the jail time. Either way you're forced into getting clean. I wish that I could be an occasional user too but I wish for a lot of things that logically won't ever happen.
 
well alright I was an iv heroin addict for a few years and I want to do it everyday still but I know if I do I will just get back to the hole I was in what your doing whether you believe me or not ive went through it I still do use opiates so im very experienced with them and tolerant but there is something about heroin that differs from everyother opiate my opinion it is the best because what you were saying you feel so good and you just don't care when you are on it that's why you shouldnt even get into it if anything maybe drink some poppy tea because smoking or snorting it a few times a week is just going to lead you into wanting more and more because when you take it nothing matters in life anymore you don't care about anything and you feel in a complete state of nirvana but before you know it its going to control your life the only thing you will have is that to escape as for your boyfriend you can do better then that stay away from him it sounds like you have your hands full as it is but bottom line stay the fuck away from heroin it will ruin your life and everything in your life
 
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