yoUr bLiSS
Bluelighter
wallowing
festering
cultivating
depeche and cigarettes
i find a strange comfort
in bittersweet misery
i feel emotion
body
soul
spirit
it is in this state i feel most alive
i write
i dance
i create
drive
motivation
determination
i am not unhappy
i love being me to the utmost extent
i just get a bit wounded at times
or sometimes i just get lonley
bored with these frequent shallow obsessions
always going for the unattainable
damn dj boys
sad to think how many completely amazing "nice" guys i shunned just as quickly as i swept them off their feet
a bit of self psycho-analysis
thought it maybe to be a defense mechanism of sorts
secretly terrified to delve deeper
for fear of drowning again
fear
anger
poesession
broken walls
chilling threats
or maybe i'm just making up excuses
it's just me being me that's it
waiting for the fairy tale
searching for that soul crushing connection
settling for nothing but
wake up silly girl
10 years ago this worked
your not 16 anymore
stop helplessly hoping for someone to turn you into elise
you'll never watch the sun rise from the edge of the deep green sea
nor will you ever get to show someone that trick to make them run away with you
wake up
step out of your head
this is real life
not some silly song from your favorite band...
[ 07 January 2003: Message edited by: yoUr bLiSS ]
festering
cultivating
depeche and cigarettes
i find a strange comfort
in bittersweet misery
i feel emotion
body
soul
spirit
it is in this state i feel most alive
i write
i dance
i create
drive
motivation
determination
i am not unhappy
i love being me to the utmost extent
i just get a bit wounded at times
or sometimes i just get lonley
bored with these frequent shallow obsessions
always going for the unattainable
damn dj boys
sad to think how many completely amazing "nice" guys i shunned just as quickly as i swept them off their feet
a bit of self psycho-analysis
thought it maybe to be a defense mechanism of sorts
secretly terrified to delve deeper
for fear of drowning again
fear
anger
poesession
broken walls
chilling threats
or maybe i'm just making up excuses
it's just me being me that's it
waiting for the fairy tale
searching for that soul crushing connection
settling for nothing but
wake up silly girl
10 years ago this worked
your not 16 anymore
stop helplessly hoping for someone to turn you into elise
you'll never watch the sun rise from the edge of the deep green sea
nor will you ever get to show someone that trick to make them run away with you
wake up
step out of your head
this is real life
not some silly song from your favorite band...
[ 07 January 2003: Message edited by: yoUr bLiSS ]
