acid_raver
Ex-Bluelighter
- cold, dark, black, sitting alone. Arms are stiff. Not stiff, I can no longer think in words, my brain is frying under this weight of thoughts. I can’t handle this stress. I try to cope with the stress. Lose consciousness. I am utterly and totally alone, there is nothing around me but this cold dark room, with no doors. The room bends and melts, it seems to be emulating my emotions and thoughts. It changes colors and swirls in front of my eyes. A hole forms leading from this abyss, and I tentatively stand up for the first time ever in my life. Peering from darkness to darkness, only able to know what exists before me because I feel what exists before me. There is a ringing in my ears, my ears, my…ears. They’re not there. Oh my…God? Am I god? What am I? Am I some sort of monster in a cage. I plunge into the hole and am briefly suspended in a negative emotion zone. I feel every thought, and every feeling I have ever had purged from my body. I am reborn in every mental sense of the word. I retain physical traits…whatever they are… but lose all memory of anything. While still being able to remember everything. Which is an impossibility, and therefore impossible to understand. What is love, what is fear. I created my world, and now it is gone, and I am scared. I want to die if this is all there is.
