Each day is getting progressively worse in my head. I try not to think because I know my thinking is unrealistic. I create these painful scenarios in my head that are completely fucked up but I believe them nonetheless.
My friend wants to hang out and fuck tomorrow. Depending on my mental state, I might. The thing is that I have strong feelings towards her. Too strong to just be 'fuck buddies'. I haven't seen her in a while and I think I may keep it that way.
Have you ever just looked at someone you love and feel pain? I'm already hurting and don't want to add more to it. I see myself sabotaging this 'relationship' even though it would hurt me tremendously.
A day at a time they say. Yeah, its real easy to say but nearly impossible to do. Fuck Narcotics Anonymous.
My friend wants to hang out and fuck tomorrow. Depending on my mental state, I might. The thing is that I have strong feelings towards her. Too strong to just be 'fuck buddies'. I haven't seen her in a while and I think I may keep it that way.
Have you ever just looked at someone you love and feel pain? I'm already hurting and don't want to add more to it. I see myself sabotaging this 'relationship' even though it would hurt me tremendously.
A day at a time they say. Yeah, its real easy to say but nearly impossible to do. Fuck Narcotics Anonymous.