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Valium-inexperienced-embarrasing painful blur of violence and pain

high on stemz-nseeds

Ex-Bluelighter
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I got to my friends party at about 10pm, just as things started to liven up. There was about 15 people there, most drinking from the keig (sp?), some passing a crack pipe around which i chose not to participate in. I pour a beer and sit down next to a girl that looks pretty out of it. I watch as one of the crack smokers gets a little loud and violent; it looked like he was trying to take the next hit but it wasn't his turn and someone said something. Then the guy takes the pipe and throws it at the other guys head after he said something like "its my pipe give it the fuck here". I heard the crack on his head (no pun intended) from 20 feet away over the noise of the party. The guy jumps over and starts pounding the guy senseless. The noise and yelling wakes the girl up that is next to me some.

The crackheads stop fighting and leave. I sit there nervously, everyone is pretty drunk but I just sip my beer. I dont like the taste much. I start talking to the girl some. She said she just ate 2 blue valiums. I say "neat. i never tried that" and she says "do you want to?" "sure" "12 dollars each hun"

Not wanting to pass up a good opportunity (i always wanted to try valium, i heard it was one of the best drugs there are), i give her 60$ and pop all 5. She looks at me and says "wow soldier. you are going to get fucked up, better quit drinking" But I finish my beer. She nodded back to sleep so I got up and walk to my friends on the couch. They are watching some lame movie about killer clowns from space.

It had only been 30 minutes and I start to feel dizzy like, in a good way. It starts to get hazy around here obviously. I remember taking off my pants and a few other things thats about it. I was so confused but didn't know it. I walk around with my pants hanging down while everyone looked at me. Then one of the guys threw a cup of beer on me. I kicked him in the chin and he fell back holding it. I saw some blood on his hand. The party thrower yells "TED (not my real name) get the fuck out of my house now!" So I pull up my pants and try to walk out. I stumble around and finally go outside.

My house was about a mile away. No way was I pedalling on my bike a mile, I could barely walk. I get into a hazy, angry mode of consciousness. I had no inhibitions to realize the wrong of my actions. After standing out in the dark for 10 minutes or so, I decide to play a game. I pick up a rock and throw it through a window of the house and get on my bike and pedal away. I fall off the bike onto the pavement, cutting my elbow and arm bad. I watch from about 50 meters as a guy angrily throw open a side door of the house, near the window i broke. I hide in the grass, laying down, feeling like a special operations soldier. He screams "TED get the fuck back here pussy! or i'm calling the cops" I smile and continue to hide. He shines a flashlight around but its not at the right angle to spot me.

When he goes back in I leave my bike in the grass near the road and stumble back toward the house. I pick out a half piece of brick from an old wall that had collapsed. Smiling, i run up to the sliding glass doors where I was forced to exit. I see 4 people watching the same clown movie on the couch and chairs. I then throw the brick. It doesnt go through, it just shatters and cracks the glass. I take off running. I hear screaming and then hear footsteps chasing me. I fall down and remember a few flashes of them beating me, thats all.

I do remember waking up. I was outside in the grass where I had fell. I was cut, beaten, and bruised. I had such a hangover on top of it. The sky was bright... it was 4pm in the afternoon. I look down at the house and see the broken door. I eventually remember where my bike is and I pedal home. I was so much in pain I thought of killing myself.

Later that day, cops came to my house. Long story short, I'm charged with vandalism, simple assault and disorderly conduct. The cop was mean to me. It turns out the guy i kicked in the face lost 2 teeth. The windows broken came to 870$ that I'll have to pay on top of all the fines.

Don't fuck around with valium. It ruined my life,and I completely blame the drug, not me.
 
high on stemz-nseeds said:
Don't fuck around with valium. It ruined my life,and I completely blame the drug, not me.

Well I'm glad you learned from this experience :p
 
I learned to stay away from valium, and that i took way too many. But i expected to be mellow. It did much worse.
 
This all happened in dec. 2004. I still haven't had my trial. I haven't spoken to anyone at the party since.
 
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I completely blame the drug, not me
I completely disagree with that way of thinking. Did the valium magically fly down your throat on its own power?
 
gutted man.
but djfriendly is right bro, u are to blame, drugs are NOT dangrous (sp) they are just fine and dandy, its until they are in the hands of someone who dosent know what they are doing that there becomes a problem.
this is a prime example.
glad ur alive though

peace.
 
Firstly, $12 each? And secondly, why'd you take all five?

Of course it's your own stupid fault. Valium are almost as cheap as air, and you ended up making an idiot out of yourself because you were too inexperienced and too naive.

Valium sucks as a recreational drug. It didn't ruin your life, you did. I take it every single day, and other benzodiazepines and I've never commited any heinous acts of vandalism (and gotten caught).

Good trip report. This is to remind people not to mess around with benzodiazepines because they're basically a waste of time unless you know what you're doing. And very few people know what they're doing when they decide to pick them up.

Ah well, at least you'll never become addicted to them because you're staying away from them. Good idea. Learn from this mistake. Crack would've been way more fun.

Cheers. %)
 
Kerrigan said:
Crack would've been way more fun.

Just about anything would have been more fun. People normally don't take a bunch of Benzos like you did for recreational purposes.

Worst $60 you ever spent huh? I would have bought a gram of coke or something...
 
who the fuck pays 12 dollars for valium? and who the fuck told you it was one of the best drugs out there...
 
Jaw Clenching said:
Just about anything would have been more fun. People normally don't take a bunch of Benzos like you did for recreational purposes.

Worst $60 you ever spent huh? I would have bought a gram of coke or something...

who defines normality?

from my one experience with valium I found it VERY enjoyable and will continue to mess with it in the future. Dropped anxiety like no other. People with anxiety do use Benzos recreationally. There is no better euphoria then feeling no anxiety :)
 
^^ very good points, but lets remember guys, not to harsh on the lad, he knows he made a silly mistake, and im fucking sure we have all made mistakes with drugs sometime in our experinces, and we learn from them, lets just say lesson learnt.
not to mention im sure it must have taken some balls for high on stemz-nseeds to write this and know some ppl would give him stick for it, i think its a top report and many many ppl here, old and new can learn from it
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peace.
 
^ yes. i learned to not eat 5 valiums at once, and not pay 12$ for them. I gues that was an unfair price. That dumb bitch.
 
I really have an urge to close this because not much good can come from it, But I don't feel you meant to cause any harm so we will see.

Theres definitely no way it was the drugs fault, that doesn't make much sense - it's almost never the drugs fault, no matter what substance. Valium is very useful in situations when it is needed to be used. You spent 12 bucks on each pill when they are worth no more than $2-5 street price, and you took 5 entire pills. I can't even take more than 2 or 3 without having my ass knocked out on the couch for an eternity. I realize this was a learning experience for you and don't take the criticism from the other posters too harshly, but maybe it was a positive experience for the fact that you probably won't ever pop an unsuitable amount of any pill ever again. I hope at least.

With all that said, I still enjoyed reading the report. hehe
 
Good doesn't always have to come out of a trip report to keep it open right?

It should stay open because this makes everyone feel better about their drug use and mistakes ;)

Take care stemznseeds.
 
You still don't get it, do you ?

high on stemz-nseeds said:
It was stupid of me, and ok, its not all the drugs fault.

Dude - realize this now, because it still hasn't sunk in - this happened months ago and apparently you just don't understand -

What happened to you was 100% your fault, 0% of the valium. You chose to buy and injest a drug you knew nothing about. You chose to take all of them at once and not even inquire as to dosing information. You chose to then finish your beer which surely compounded the effects, despite what the seller told you. Nobody made you put those valiums down your throat.

Valium is not to blame. It CANNOT be to blame - you need to realize that the substance contained in that pill is not concious - it's an arangement of atoms. In no way shape or form does it have any responsibility for what YOU did to those people and those windows.

You clearly haven't learned your lesson, but read over this post until it sinks in. I'm not being punitive - I'm telling you the factual truth. If you still think the Valium was in any way shape or form to blame for what happened, re-read the post until it makes sense. If it still doesn't make sense, accept that you are wrong, and move on.

"Bluelight - Drugs destroy dreams :)"
 
Re: You still don't get it, do you ?

TheMMT said:
Dude - realize this now, because it still hasn't sunk in - this happened months ago and apparently you just don't understand -

What happened to you was 100% your fault, 0% of the valium. You chose to buy and injest a drug you knew nothing about. You chose to take all of them at once and not even inquire as to dosing information. You chose to then finish your beer which surely compounded the effects, despite what the seller told you. Nobody made you put those valiums down your throat.

Valium is not to blame. It CANNOT be to blame - you need to realize that the substance contained in that pill is not concious - it's an arangement of atoms. In no way shape or form does it have any responsibility for what YOU did to those people and those windows.

You clearly haven't learned your lesson, but read over this post until it sinks in. I'm not being punitive - I'm telling you the factual truth. If you still think the Valium was in any way shape or form to blame for what happened, re-read the post until it makes sense. If it still doesn't make sense, accept that you are wrong, and move on.

"Bluelight - Drugs destroy dreams :)"

My sentiments exactly, except that drugs destroy dreams, but thats just my opinion.

Also valium is awesome if you know what your doing, like someone said (I think Jaw Clenching) I enjoy it immensely, great with weed and coseine. man you should have just chilled man, personally when I'm on valium I would've just taken of my shirt and thrown some beer on him, then raped his mother tchh tchh
 
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