validation...lacking

[satori18]

i have always found it ironic, that when i upset myself in terms of beauty...my make-up runs. Displaying to the rest...outside my private mental bubble my insecurity that causes so much doubt and pain. The function of the fake paint i put on my face turns into the very exclamation of discontent with the very issue, that is why i paint myself in the first place, first place, first place, first place, warm place inside, turns cold. Validation is missing. i have to stop asking why it is necessary in the first place, in the first place, in the first place, in the place where my abounding love will eventually fill. once someone wants, appreciate this beauty, that i can't bring myself to acknowledge,if it is there, in the first place.
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satori shalom
[This message has been edited by satori18 (edited 20 November 2000).]

 

[The Enhancer]

Validation?
I wonder, because I have suffered from the same uncompassionate mental construct. Look inside yourself and realize this,
noone can make you happy, they may be able to contribute to it or take away from it but they will never be able to make you happy. Incidentally, from a male point of view, I find a woman attractive who is confident enough to go outside in anything. It is only after you are able and comfortable to be alone that you can ever really find someone to be with.
The Enhancer

 

[satori18]

thanks for your response.
i relaize, and have known what you said to be true.
it doesn't just happen, and the frustratio lies in the fact that i have so much love in my life, and am genuinley happy.
the moods of lonliness and self-doubt strike,and i have nothing to do about them.
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satori shalom

 

[Angelight]

baby, i relate to this alittle too much *sigh* call me.

 

[cherub]

ahhhhh hun, your words speak alot of truth for alot of us. IF we could just learn to validate ourselves and look inside to see how really beautiful we each our.
I know I am notorious forgeting that It is me that contains my happiness.
your writing is beautiful and so are you hun.

 

[satori18]

thanks so much guys....your support means alot...
cherub, you are wonderful and warm...
angel baby...let's talk soon...

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satori shalom