SIghhhhhh...haha. I feel this Huge weight, Adrenaline filled, panicky, confusing sense of complete urgency. Ive had this before, many times, it hasnt been this bad in a while though. I know a lot of it could be justified..or at least make sense.a Wasted a lot of time in life missed out on many opportunities..ect. But the problem is nothing I can think of doing seems like it would calm it. Even small things I think maybe Ill do it feels too late to do any. Like I missed some kind of timeline. It drives me insane. I have been stuck for a while in life...had to make some choices I didnt want to choose that feels like big steps back. But even when things arnt like this once in a while this feeling hits SO hard..lasts a long time. Weeks, months. Nothing seems to appease it. I cant even sit comfortably to watch a movie, or go for a walk, or really do anything because of the nagging feeling that I dont have time...i know that part is irrational especially since I dont know what the fuck my mind or whatever is doing this is tellling me I should be doing 
. Anyone else get this or have any insight towards it? I cant take it anymore..Its exhausting depressing and really makes everything feel pointless. Im trying to have a clean period in my life but this is reallly getting in the way of it...relapsed a lot because of it. I dont know what to do.
Should also note I do have ptsd which can cause me to feel something like this, but its more of just an adrenaline rush like a psychological flashback almost ha just makes me want to run out the door n everything feels life or death for a bit but its not like that. Was also in a relationship for a while where this was exagerated..he was all about TIME wont wait...are you ever gonna do anything productive ( I was doing A LOT in this time btw lol) I think that was a reflection of his mind at that point, he would say things like I didnt do enough to deserve to see friends have fun ect...didnt help at all lol but it did seem to get better awhile after that relationship ended. It probably hasnt been this bad since i was 17 that was 7 years ago now. Sorry for the rambling..just all wired on bad adrenaline
. Anyone else get this or have any insight towards it? I cant take it anymore..Its exhausting depressing and really makes everything feel pointless. Im trying to have a clean period in my life but this is reallly getting in the way of it...relapsed a lot because of it. I dont know what to do.Should also note I do have ptsd which can cause me to feel something like this, but its more of just an adrenaline rush like a psychological flashback almost ha just makes me want to run out the door n everything feels life or death for a bit but its not like that. Was also in a relationship for a while where this was exagerated..he was all about TIME wont wait...are you ever gonna do anything productive ( I was doing A LOT in this time btw lol) I think that was a reflection of his mind at that point, he would say things like I didnt do enough to deserve to see friends have fun ect...didnt help at all lol but it did seem to get better awhile after that relationship ended. It probably hasnt been this bad since i was 17 that was 7 years ago now. Sorry for the rambling..just all wired on bad adrenaline
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