adder
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my big question is simply which CYP2D6 group i belong to. the first time i took DXM, i remember hallucinating so hard i literally could not see. but that just doesn't happen now. IMO, DXM is the water of life, a poison that must be enzymatically changed into a drug that lets you see through time. does my body convert it almost instantly to DXO and thus the effect? i can't get anyone who might have the knowledge to comment.
The resultant of DXM effects comes from both DXM and DXO. I have never taken DXO itself but from the few reports on Erowid I expect a lot of psychedelic/hallucinogenic properties may actually be attributed to DXM. One of the greatest trips that I had on DXM were when I re-dosed it over an hour into the experience (after some metabolites of DXM from the first dose inhibited CYP2D6 and thus inhibited the pathway to DXO to some degree). I'm sure DXM effects are essential to the deep and colourful CEVs and plain dissociative effects of DXO are somewhat secondary. I guess for this very reason even though DXM has a very dirty feel to it compared to ketamine, it's quite unique among dissociatives. After all there are dissociatives like diphenidine which have a lot less to offer and generally differ a lot in effects to their disadvantage. Thus whatever it is, sigma agonism and/or monoaminergic effects, it constitutes DXM's uniqueness.
I fully agree there's much more to life than just joy and pleasure, frankly speaking you learn a lot through painful experiences, so they are like a vital part of inner growth. And the key is indeed the harmony, the perfect balance, something that is actually quite difficult to come by easily given the way we're forced to live. It's no wonder it's so hard to convince any addict that taking drugs is bad for them and they should quit when all that regular therapies have to offer is the return to the every day nonsense. I used to think "why should I quit at all? why am I not supposed to be allowed to take anything I want?". How can the society expect the addicts to quit if most of them actually don't care at all. It took me years to realise that I had basically become a zombie ever trying to calm myself down more and more. And it wasn't until I painfully quit methadone and then benzodiazepines that I began sensing my life is really changing for better and I'm changing for better, however, I didn't decide to quit because I suddenly realised I want my old life back which I've always hated, it was kind of a subconscious process that have gradually progressed in the background, and then I finally realised that I'd always known that something is wrong with the world around me and that's why I could never really fit, but I simply chose the wrong way of coping with it.