Untested Pill (?MDMA+Speed?) - Experienced - Ended up at Hospital / permanent anxiety
I've been a regular "E" user for 5 years. Usually spacing them out every couple of weeks, sometimes more. I don't really hang out with anyone who does E, nor do I like doing it in crowded clubs so I've learned to enjoy dosing on my own. I'll listen to some music with the lights off, maybe sit in the shower for a bit.
I hadn't done any for a few months and decided that I wanted to again. A friend was buying some pills from a friend so I asked them to pick me up some as well. They were described by the dealer as "good but speedy". I've done all kinds of pills over the years, some I went to sleep immediately following my trip, others kept me awake for the next day, so I figured fine, they'll probably keep me up but I had no plans. So early one evening I took one and decided to chill out. I began to watch some videos and waited for the E to take effect.
45 minutes to an hour later I began to feel the familiar effects of MDMA, my body started to feel warm and it felt good to stretch out on the couch. Maybe a half hour later I was feeling quite good and felt the pill was decent and decided to take another.
Soon after I was quite "out of it" and I'm not sure how much time had passed, but I suddenly awoke as the tape that was playing in my VCR had ended so it was probably a couple of hours. At this point I felt VERY high. More high than I had ever been before. Uncomfortably so. It was hard to keep a thought for more than a second, and it was a bit worrying as I always liked how on E I could take back control of my mind if needed to take care of something/talk whatever. I thought maybe a cold shower would sober me up a bit better so I dragged myself to the shower, turned on the cold water and stood there staring at a ceiling tile.
I began to hyperventilate so I did my best to control my breathing. Breath in - Breath out, Breath in - Breath out. All while trying to keep myself from falling into mushville.I heard a noise, and it was my roomate coming home from work. So I snapped out of my trance, turned off the shower and greeted them. I looked at the clock and realised I had been in the shower of 3 hours. At this point I felt very odd, and very un-MDMA effects. My head felt numb, like a huge wad of buzzing cotten wrapped around it. I also couldn't stop my shallow breathing.
It had been at least 6 hours since I dosed so this was very odd and very disconcerting since I knew now I was dealing with some sort of mystery drug. I sat back on the couch and watched TV while I waited for this to all pass. I concentrated on my breathing. About 20 minutes later I noticed that the tingling I felt around my head seemed to be spreading, I could feel it in my chest and my face felt numb. I decided to go into the shower again and see if that would help.
It was beginning to get hard to breath and it took more effort to suck air in and out. I could also feel my chest constricting more and more. The numbness was also spreading. I could feel my heart beating through my chest. While this was going on, my roommate started to look online to figure out what the hell was doing this. It was starting to get scary that 7 hours into this the effects were getting STRONGER. The shower wasn't helping so I got out. I began to pace around and concentrate on my breathing which was getting more difficult. I would extend my arms as I breathed to try and help. My roomate called a friend of hours to see if they might know what the hell was going on.
A half hour later I could feel my chest get even more constricted, my face was quite numb. It was getting worse and this feeling was getting stronger and stronger and it felt for the first time that my life was in danger. We called a Taxi to take me to the hospital. I kept breathing best I could. Got to the hospital and after a short wait saw an admitting nurse and told them what was going on. I could feel the nurse groan when Ecstasy was mentioned and I'm sure she was thinking "here comes another one".
They took my oxygen count, which was 99% so I was getting enough oxygen, yet it was more and more difficult for me to breath. The numbness was spreading. I couldn't sit, so I kept walking around, trying to slow down my breathing but that was impossible. About a half hour later I was admitted to a bed, IV drop, heart monitor etc.. and I sat there. Some nurses came to take blood and a med student interviewed me. I sat some more.
Not too long after this I could breath a bit easier, and for the first time that night I could feel this trip finally subsiding. They took some chest x-rays to see if there was any damage. Sat there for a couple more hours, and by 7am I felt mostly fine and my stomach was grumbling. I told the staff how I felt but they wanted me to stay a bit longer for monitoring and to get the results of my blood test and xray. In the end the xray was fine and I'm not sure what the blood test was for but I finally went home around 830am. Before I was discharged a resident doctor saw me, told me to "lay off the Ecstasy" and cleared me to go.
I tried to impart to the staff that what I was experiencing wasn't MDMA but something else, but I'm sure my visit will just be another "Ecstacy related overdose" or something. Best we could determine after all this was that the pills contained a small amount of MDMA as I certainly felt something, but then a large amount of some sort of amphetemine. I suspect that my cold shower started my hyperventilating which I couldn't stop later on which was giving me a serious "Panic attack". I've never had one before, so couldn't identify what was happening to me.
The worst part about all this is weeks later I seem to be suffering from permanent anxiety. Now every sort of normal body ache/pain gets me all worried and I've had a couple of smaller panic attacks since for no reason. It really sucks, since I've never had a bad pill before in all the times I've dosed. I'm not sure if I can ever do it again without risking huge anxiety and ruining it.
Funnily enough, my EZ-Test that I had ordered a few weeks before arrived days after this whole episode and may have saved me from all of this.
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I've been a regular "E" user for 5 years. Usually spacing them out every couple of weeks, sometimes more. I don't really hang out with anyone who does E, nor do I like doing it in crowded clubs so I've learned to enjoy dosing on my own. I'll listen to some music with the lights off, maybe sit in the shower for a bit.
I hadn't done any for a few months and decided that I wanted to again. A friend was buying some pills from a friend so I asked them to pick me up some as well. They were described by the dealer as "good but speedy". I've done all kinds of pills over the years, some I went to sleep immediately following my trip, others kept me awake for the next day, so I figured fine, they'll probably keep me up but I had no plans. So early one evening I took one and decided to chill out. I began to watch some videos and waited for the E to take effect.
45 minutes to an hour later I began to feel the familiar effects of MDMA, my body started to feel warm and it felt good to stretch out on the couch. Maybe a half hour later I was feeling quite good and felt the pill was decent and decided to take another.
Soon after I was quite "out of it" and I'm not sure how much time had passed, but I suddenly awoke as the tape that was playing in my VCR had ended so it was probably a couple of hours. At this point I felt VERY high. More high than I had ever been before. Uncomfortably so. It was hard to keep a thought for more than a second, and it was a bit worrying as I always liked how on E I could take back control of my mind if needed to take care of something/talk whatever. I thought maybe a cold shower would sober me up a bit better so I dragged myself to the shower, turned on the cold water and stood there staring at a ceiling tile.
I began to hyperventilate so I did my best to control my breathing. Breath in - Breath out, Breath in - Breath out. All while trying to keep myself from falling into mushville.I heard a noise, and it was my roomate coming home from work. So I snapped out of my trance, turned off the shower and greeted them. I looked at the clock and realised I had been in the shower of 3 hours. At this point I felt very odd, and very un-MDMA effects. My head felt numb, like a huge wad of buzzing cotten wrapped around it. I also couldn't stop my shallow breathing.
It had been at least 6 hours since I dosed so this was very odd and very disconcerting since I knew now I was dealing with some sort of mystery drug. I sat back on the couch and watched TV while I waited for this to all pass. I concentrated on my breathing. About 20 minutes later I noticed that the tingling I felt around my head seemed to be spreading, I could feel it in my chest and my face felt numb. I decided to go into the shower again and see if that would help.
It was beginning to get hard to breath and it took more effort to suck air in and out. I could also feel my chest constricting more and more. The numbness was also spreading. I could feel my heart beating through my chest. While this was going on, my roommate started to look online to figure out what the hell was doing this. It was starting to get scary that 7 hours into this the effects were getting STRONGER. The shower wasn't helping so I got out. I began to pace around and concentrate on my breathing which was getting more difficult. I would extend my arms as I breathed to try and help. My roomate called a friend of hours to see if they might know what the hell was going on.
A half hour later I could feel my chest get even more constricted, my face was quite numb. It was getting worse and this feeling was getting stronger and stronger and it felt for the first time that my life was in danger. We called a Taxi to take me to the hospital. I kept breathing best I could. Got to the hospital and after a short wait saw an admitting nurse and told them what was going on. I could feel the nurse groan when Ecstasy was mentioned and I'm sure she was thinking "here comes another one".
They took my oxygen count, which was 99% so I was getting enough oxygen, yet it was more and more difficult for me to breath. The numbness was spreading. I couldn't sit, so I kept walking around, trying to slow down my breathing but that was impossible. About a half hour later I was admitted to a bed, IV drop, heart monitor etc.. and I sat there. Some nurses came to take blood and a med student interviewed me. I sat some more.
Not too long after this I could breath a bit easier, and for the first time that night I could feel this trip finally subsiding. They took some chest x-rays to see if there was any damage. Sat there for a couple more hours, and by 7am I felt mostly fine and my stomach was grumbling. I told the staff how I felt but they wanted me to stay a bit longer for monitoring and to get the results of my blood test and xray. In the end the xray was fine and I'm not sure what the blood test was for but I finally went home around 830am. Before I was discharged a resident doctor saw me, told me to "lay off the Ecstasy" and cleared me to go.
I tried to impart to the staff that what I was experiencing wasn't MDMA but something else, but I'm sure my visit will just be another "Ecstacy related overdose" or something. Best we could determine after all this was that the pills contained a small amount of MDMA as I certainly felt something, but then a large amount of some sort of amphetemine. I suspect that my cold shower started my hyperventilating which I couldn't stop later on which was giving me a serious "Panic attack". I've never had one before, so couldn't identify what was happening to me.
The worst part about all this is weeks later I seem to be suffering from permanent anxiety. Now every sort of normal body ache/pain gets me all worried and I've had a couple of smaller panic attacks since for no reason. It really sucks, since I've never had a bad pill before in all the times I've dosed. I'm not sure if I can ever do it again without risking huge anxiety and ruining it.
Funnily enough, my EZ-Test that I had ordered a few weeks before arrived days after this whole episode and may have saved me from all of this.
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