NeoBlink
Bluelighter
(sold as) MDMA - Experienced - X trip to hell
Ive had trips before, lots of them, some good some bad, but none like this........
It was the end of a long weekend, and to unwind my best friend Crix and I decided we would roll. After some queries we found 10hits of "Black Liquerice", these were capsules. Ive done capsules before, infact my first E experience was on capsules on my 21st. Ive heard bad stuff and good about them, but I was still alittle causious.
The night started off great, Crix and each ate 1, we always started with one just so we knew how strong they were, but it wasn't uncommon for myself to pound through 3-4 in a night. I usually will piggyback them after I peaked off the one before, and I never had any problems until this night. But anyways, I was going to do the same, why break with tradition when tradiotion never failed before?
So we both chilled out and waited for our roll to kick in. It started weak, not the normal calming euphoric kickin like I was used to. No big e' I just thought it was weak stuff. So Crix and I gave it another hour before we decided to do, that way we would be comfortable with knowing our roll. Well we decided to bump the next hit, Ive never snorted E, but let me tell this shit burned like hell, all the way to the back of my eyes. But I sucked it up and continued on, this put us both at 2.
With in about 20 minutes or so we noticed a much increased roll, fine by us we were happy to be rolling. Well the roll wasn't as normal as far as euphoria was concerned, but we weren't alarmed, we just assumed it was low grade shit.
By this time we were disapointed with the quality and had decided that we were good with two in our systems for now. After about an hour and half, closer to two we just weren't feeling much of the E. Our highs weren't very high, and our lows weren't very low. We had hoped that snorting it would gives a better trip but it didn't seam to promising, so I decided I wanted more, Crix said he was fine, he was satisfied with what he got and decided he was good.
So I went to my room, lined up another one into two lines. Hit one line and decided I was going to wait on the second one, leave it for later. So I curled up in my bed below my nice soft down comforter and relaxed while the shit I put in kicked in. I did get a little higher, and rolled just the same as before and then I decided I was going to go take a shower, my favorite thing to do while rolling. I was in the shower for about another hour and decided I had enough, I did blow up a couple of times, but nothing as hard as I have before.
I came out into the living and said to Crix, man this shit is weak, and he said "yeah it is, but man it makes me feel uncomfortable." I asked what he meant and he said, "well if you touch your arm or you hair it feels good but if you don't do anything but sit there it feels uncomfortable." I didn't think anything of it and sat down to watch some T.V. with him, as soon as I sat down I got this really uncomfortable rush through my body. I was like what the hell was that?
Then I remember what Crix said. Well, I blew up once like that and thought I had already peaked because it was intense and alot of time had passed between doses, we were at about the 4-5 hour mark, and any E I have done ive always peaked way before then, and thats from ingesting on a full stomac, with out bitting into it.
But anyways, I all of a sudden blew up real high, first once, and platued, thena second, and platued, and then a third, this one was really fucking high, and it hurt like hell. This happend three times, and I remember on the second time Just before I platued(I know ive spelt that wrong)I got this burning, prickling rush that went up the inside of my arms, up my neck and up to about half way up the back of my neck. I lost my shit, extreme paranoia flew through my mind and body, all I could think of was shit ive ODed, im gonna die, im gonna die. I quickly stood up and ran to the bath room to make myself puke, to no avail.
I was pratically slamming my fist down my throut and nothing was comming up. After the rush had gone I pulled my head out of the tollet and decided that I was done in. Another rush hit, but it wasn't as strong as the first three, so I relaxed a little, but not much. I figured i might need some water in me so I stuck my head in the sink and gulped down alot of water. While looking in the mirror I saw that my left pupil was extremly dilated, but my right one was only half the size. I freaked again, I ran into the living and told my friend take me to the ER im ODeing. He said no your not, what are you talking about, and I told him I had takin more them him.
Well to make this overly long drawn out story short, I went to the ER, didn't go cause I finally got my self to puke, and eased my mind alittle, don't know why but it did. We stopped by the store on the way to the ER to get a gallon of water, which as soon as I got downed about 3/4 of it. And then puked up in the ER parking lot! Which by the way felt awsome, Ive never enjoyed puking so much in my life. But anyways, for the rest of the night every time I would blow up i freaked, all I could think of was this going to be the one that killed me?
Ive never had a panic attack before this, but after asking around I determinded thats what happened just as peaked. Since then, that was just over 5 months ago, ive had to quite all drugs because everytime I got high something would click in me and was reliving the whole experience. And I had a nice little habit going to.
This has left me pretty well shakin, and still questioning what I feel. It has takin alot of person control to get where I am today. For about the past five months Ive had panic attacks everytime my body does something wierd, like tingling in one leg, but not the other, tingling on the left side of my scalp, but not the other. I still don't know why, but eyes still dilate awkwardly.
But anyways, point is Don't do capsules, never.....and second always test them, always.
I don't know if eyes will ever be normal, my vision is a little screwy as well, things seem slightly out of focus, and when I look at something sometimes I feel like im not really looking at it.
thanks for hearing my story, if anyone has any clues as to what I took, or any words of advice as how to recover from this faster let me know, it would be appriciated, Thanks
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[ 25 August 2002: Message edited by: masheadatronic ]
Ive had trips before, lots of them, some good some bad, but none like this........
It was the end of a long weekend, and to unwind my best friend Crix and I decided we would roll. After some queries we found 10hits of "Black Liquerice", these were capsules. Ive done capsules before, infact my first E experience was on capsules on my 21st. Ive heard bad stuff and good about them, but I was still alittle causious.
The night started off great, Crix and each ate 1, we always started with one just so we knew how strong they were, but it wasn't uncommon for myself to pound through 3-4 in a night. I usually will piggyback them after I peaked off the one before, and I never had any problems until this night. But anyways, I was going to do the same, why break with tradition when tradiotion never failed before?
So we both chilled out and waited for our roll to kick in. It started weak, not the normal calming euphoric kickin like I was used to. No big e' I just thought it was weak stuff. So Crix and I gave it another hour before we decided to do, that way we would be comfortable with knowing our roll. Well we decided to bump the next hit, Ive never snorted E, but let me tell this shit burned like hell, all the way to the back of my eyes. But I sucked it up and continued on, this put us both at 2.
With in about 20 minutes or so we noticed a much increased roll, fine by us we were happy to be rolling. Well the roll wasn't as normal as far as euphoria was concerned, but we weren't alarmed, we just assumed it was low grade shit.
By this time we were disapointed with the quality and had decided that we were good with two in our systems for now. After about an hour and half, closer to two we just weren't feeling much of the E. Our highs weren't very high, and our lows weren't very low. We had hoped that snorting it would gives a better trip but it didn't seam to promising, so I decided I wanted more, Crix said he was fine, he was satisfied with what he got and decided he was good.
So I went to my room, lined up another one into two lines. Hit one line and decided I was going to wait on the second one, leave it for later. So I curled up in my bed below my nice soft down comforter and relaxed while the shit I put in kicked in. I did get a little higher, and rolled just the same as before and then I decided I was going to go take a shower, my favorite thing to do while rolling. I was in the shower for about another hour and decided I had enough, I did blow up a couple of times, but nothing as hard as I have before.
I came out into the living and said to Crix, man this shit is weak, and he said "yeah it is, but man it makes me feel uncomfortable." I asked what he meant and he said, "well if you touch your arm or you hair it feels good but if you don't do anything but sit there it feels uncomfortable." I didn't think anything of it and sat down to watch some T.V. with him, as soon as I sat down I got this really uncomfortable rush through my body. I was like what the hell was that?
Then I remember what Crix said. Well, I blew up once like that and thought I had already peaked because it was intense and alot of time had passed between doses, we were at about the 4-5 hour mark, and any E I have done ive always peaked way before then, and thats from ingesting on a full stomac, with out bitting into it.
But anyways, I all of a sudden blew up real high, first once, and platued, thena second, and platued, and then a third, this one was really fucking high, and it hurt like hell. This happend three times, and I remember on the second time Just before I platued(I know ive spelt that wrong)I got this burning, prickling rush that went up the inside of my arms, up my neck and up to about half way up the back of my neck. I lost my shit, extreme paranoia flew through my mind and body, all I could think of was shit ive ODed, im gonna die, im gonna die. I quickly stood up and ran to the bath room to make myself puke, to no avail.
I was pratically slamming my fist down my throut and nothing was comming up. After the rush had gone I pulled my head out of the tollet and decided that I was done in. Another rush hit, but it wasn't as strong as the first three, so I relaxed a little, but not much. I figured i might need some water in me so I stuck my head in the sink and gulped down alot of water. While looking in the mirror I saw that my left pupil was extremly dilated, but my right one was only half the size. I freaked again, I ran into the living and told my friend take me to the ER im ODeing. He said no your not, what are you talking about, and I told him I had takin more them him.
Well to make this overly long drawn out story short, I went to the ER, didn't go cause I finally got my self to puke, and eased my mind alittle, don't know why but it did. We stopped by the store on the way to the ER to get a gallon of water, which as soon as I got downed about 3/4 of it. And then puked up in the ER parking lot! Which by the way felt awsome, Ive never enjoyed puking so much in my life. But anyways, for the rest of the night every time I would blow up i freaked, all I could think of was this going to be the one that killed me?
Ive never had a panic attack before this, but after asking around I determinded thats what happened just as peaked. Since then, that was just over 5 months ago, ive had to quite all drugs because everytime I got high something would click in me and was reliving the whole experience. And I had a nice little habit going to.
This has left me pretty well shakin, and still questioning what I feel. It has takin alot of person control to get where I am today. For about the past five months Ive had panic attacks everytime my body does something wierd, like tingling in one leg, but not the other, tingling on the left side of my scalp, but not the other. I still don't know why, but eyes still dilate awkwardly.
But anyways, point is Don't do capsules, never.....and second always test them, always.
I don't know if eyes will ever be normal, my vision is a little screwy as well, things seem slightly out of focus, and when I look at something sometimes I feel like im not really looking at it.
thanks for hearing my story, if anyone has any clues as to what I took, or any words of advice as how to recover from this faster let me know, it would be appriciated, Thanks
[title edited and spaces added -mash]
[ 25 August 2002: Message edited by: masheadatronic ]
