tracedwards313
Bluelighter
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- Jan 7, 2015
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I had a very hardcore meth induced psychosis about a year ago. There were some probably factors such as heavy alcohol use that componded the shear intensity of the episode. Its would be a 10/10 in every psychosis indicator. Long story short it lasted 5 days and ended in the psych unit. Luckliy tje recovery was fast with no noticable long term effect.
I got clean totally for 6 months after.
I currently use multiple drugs but not in routine and meth is sporadic. Roughly 2 or 3 times a month and never go on benders like in the old days
Unfortunately I have learned that my threshold to reach psychosis has been drastically shortened. It takes 2 to 3 days and ill be experiencing hallucinations and paranoia that are. considered worse than when I used to go for week long benders (rarely) and trip but not in a negative or out of control way. Also alcohol can make it even worse. I recently had drank for like 3 days kinda heavy and then did a larger shot than I usually would and it cause sever psychosis in less than.12 hours!
I dont let the psychosis effect me as it may to someone who didnt know what was going on. Its not just slight halluinations I have. Fully form visual beings like shadow.people, elfs, bugs, tripping colorful mechinal structores, and the worst is the auditory hallucinations that can imitate any voice exactly and are obviously connected to your sub conscience brain because they know what to say that will trick you. It fucking sucks!!!
I dont use enough to care most of the time and when I do use I go one and done. But it can easily happen. I obliviously spun right now and my phones keyboard sucks ass
Honestly my fear is the damage to my brain. Obviously something has been damaged but when Im sober I dont have any noticable cognitive issues. I have friends and family who would say something if they though i was mentally affected in any way.
I hope i dont fucking develop schizophrenia or some shit. That would be what makes sense because severe stimulant.psychosis literally mirrors schizophrenic symptoms identically from a medical stand point.
I have found scientific evidence supporting the significantly heightened risk of psychosis after the first experience. Which I already knew but still at least its no longer anecdotal evidence.
It suck when something youd never expect happens to you. Meth doesnt care who you are. I have an above average IQ not that its an indicator of intelligence it doesnt hurt.
This post probably looks like a brain dead tweaker attemping to.deny his fate wrote it lol but i dont have patience for this phones shit typos.
I hope it made sense enough. If not fuck it ill take it down later.
I got clean totally for 6 months after.
I currently use multiple drugs but not in routine and meth is sporadic. Roughly 2 or 3 times a month and never go on benders like in the old days
Unfortunately I have learned that my threshold to reach psychosis has been drastically shortened. It takes 2 to 3 days and ill be experiencing hallucinations and paranoia that are. considered worse than when I used to go for week long benders (rarely) and trip but not in a negative or out of control way. Also alcohol can make it even worse. I recently had drank for like 3 days kinda heavy and then did a larger shot than I usually would and it cause sever psychosis in less than.12 hours!
I dont let the psychosis effect me as it may to someone who didnt know what was going on. Its not just slight halluinations I have. Fully form visual beings like shadow.people, elfs, bugs, tripping colorful mechinal structores, and the worst is the auditory hallucinations that can imitate any voice exactly and are obviously connected to your sub conscience brain because they know what to say that will trick you. It fucking sucks!!!
I dont use enough to care most of the time and when I do use I go one and done. But it can easily happen. I obliviously spun right now and my phones keyboard sucks ass
Honestly my fear is the damage to my brain. Obviously something has been damaged but when Im sober I dont have any noticable cognitive issues. I have friends and family who would say something if they though i was mentally affected in any way.
I hope i dont fucking develop schizophrenia or some shit. That would be what makes sense because severe stimulant.psychosis literally mirrors schizophrenic symptoms identically from a medical stand point.
I have found scientific evidence supporting the significantly heightened risk of psychosis after the first experience. Which I already knew but still at least its no longer anecdotal evidence.
It suck when something youd never expect happens to you. Meth doesnt care who you are. I have an above average IQ not that its an indicator of intelligence it doesnt hurt.
This post probably looks like a brain dead tweaker attemping to.deny his fate wrote it lol but i dont have patience for this phones shit typos.
I hope it made sense enough. If not fuck it ill take it down later.