Burn it up
Bluelighter
Dear Bluelight,
I wanted to share with you my recent experience with heroin and how it unexpectedly affected my alcohol use. It is important that I first give some background regarding my relationship with both substances.
I am 29 years old and have been regularly using alcohol for the last 7 years. At the beginning I drank socially on the weekends, but it slowly developed throughout the years into heavier weekend binges combined with some light drinking during the week. It culminated in my current situation, where I drink heavily many times per week regardless of my company or my duties the following day. Alcohol has been incorporated into my daily life and a high tolerance prevents me from getting properly drunk or hangover anymore. I am not happy with this and wish I would moderate my drinking, but at the same time have never actively tried to do anything about it. I don't think that I am an alcoholic even if I am, because I convince myself to believe that this is "just a phase" and it will sort itself out as I slowly continue growing up... of course, it will not.
Regarding heroin, I sporadically have been using it for the last 10 years under the most strict control from my side. Every year I allow myself to smoke no more than a gram in total, usually spreading it into two yearly smoking sprees that last about 15 days each. So far this usage has always remained very reasonable use, with minimal risks, almost non-existent withdrawals and very moderate cravings that disappear after a couple of weeks after use.
I am currently in one of these heroin sprees. I have been smoking it twice daily for the last 10 days and could not be more surprised about the influence it has had on my drinking. From one day to the next I have become genuinely disinterested in alcohol. The daily luring temptation of drinking is totally gone. For the first time in years, I have been completely sober for more than a week. I don't feel like drinking and am truly amazed that it happened so unexpectedly and spontaneously.
Did this ever happen to anybody? It is clear that heroin seems to be "filling the addiction gap" in my brain, but this never happened to me before. The question is if my relationship with alcohol could have changed after this experience. Could I expect to feel less alcohol cravings even when I stop using heroin after a couple of days?
I will definitely use this opportunity to re-asses my relationship with alcohol and not fall into old habits. Maybe it is time to start making an effort in this direction.
I wanted to share with you my recent experience with heroin and how it unexpectedly affected my alcohol use. It is important that I first give some background regarding my relationship with both substances.
I am 29 years old and have been regularly using alcohol for the last 7 years. At the beginning I drank socially on the weekends, but it slowly developed throughout the years into heavier weekend binges combined with some light drinking during the week. It culminated in my current situation, where I drink heavily many times per week regardless of my company or my duties the following day. Alcohol has been incorporated into my daily life and a high tolerance prevents me from getting properly drunk or hangover anymore. I am not happy with this and wish I would moderate my drinking, but at the same time have never actively tried to do anything about it. I don't think that I am an alcoholic even if I am, because I convince myself to believe that this is "just a phase" and it will sort itself out as I slowly continue growing up... of course, it will not.
Regarding heroin, I sporadically have been using it for the last 10 years under the most strict control from my side. Every year I allow myself to smoke no more than a gram in total, usually spreading it into two yearly smoking sprees that last about 15 days each. So far this usage has always remained very reasonable use, with minimal risks, almost non-existent withdrawals and very moderate cravings that disappear after a couple of weeks after use.
I am currently in one of these heroin sprees. I have been smoking it twice daily for the last 10 days and could not be more surprised about the influence it has had on my drinking. From one day to the next I have become genuinely disinterested in alcohol. The daily luring temptation of drinking is totally gone. For the first time in years, I have been completely sober for more than a week. I don't feel like drinking and am truly amazed that it happened so unexpectedly and spontaneously.
Did this ever happen to anybody? It is clear that heroin seems to be "filling the addiction gap" in my brain, but this never happened to me before. The question is if my relationship with alcohol could have changed after this experience. Could I expect to feel less alcohol cravings even when I stop using heroin after a couple of days?
I will definitely use this opportunity to re-asses my relationship with alcohol and not fall into old habits. Maybe it is time to start making an effort in this direction.