PeachesMuffin
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Dec 15, 2021
- Messages
- 5
Well I'm PuddledPeaches but my friends call me Peaches. People will ask me what's my real name and I will say, "You can call me Peaches." That's because the "real" name doesn't matter, I'm not her. She was an unsure of herself, Self doubting, uncomfortable woman that went thru life appeasing others. I've been in and out rehabs, outpatients, and 1 long term facilities and they really did help me at the time that I needed the help. Addiction is a self diagnosed assessment and I always was capable to step back, access the situation, and determine my life was unmanageable and I needed to seek help. But things are different now. I have been a daily user of Crystal Meth for about a year now and in total have used it for about 3 years approximately. The reason I say it's different is because it's given me an insight on myself that I can't fathom ever giving away. An insight that I quite possibly always had but was too scared or doubted it was even right or if anyone would want to even hear it. Around this time last year my Narcissistic Boyfriend broke up with me and antagonized me to the point I think he was pushing for myself to commit suicide. He almost succeeded but like everything he did in life, he did a half ass job. So I took the opportunity and flipped this breakdown into a breakthrough and built myself up. I am a woman that is empathetic to others, but doesn't leave myself for last when helping others. I say what I mean and mean what I say. I am a female with a healthy sexual appetite but not the submissive out of her head out of control that men hope for. I'm a control freak that doesn't allow myself to go out of control cause I know the repercussions if I do. I am a loner but not lonely. And the most gratifying thing that came out of this passed year is that I love to create. Discovering content creating has given me a passion for something that I work for 24/7. It's my business, my brand, my lifestyle. That I try to display to ppl that substance users are not the bottom of the barrel scourge of the earth.
So by discovery this site I feel like I may have found my like minded people. And if not then I continue my path of self awareness and the feeling of finally being comfortable in my own skin.
BESOS!
So by discovery this site I feel like I may have found my like minded people. And if not then I continue my path of self awareness and the feeling of finally being comfortable in my own skin.
BESOS!
