two words

[beanpoophead]

My taxicab confessions
and razor blade curses
staying up til all hours
just cos i ain’t got tired
of living my life quite yet
i haven’t died trying
to pick myself up yet
I’m still kicking it, free

waiting for that day
waiting on that one good thing
that will turn my whole world around
into something new

kissing the moon
and smiling at the stars
singing me lullabies
as i drift off into the world between
this and that and all that reality shit

i knew your heart
said goodbye
pale skin, no strawberry gashes
no, not this time
i won’t hurt myself
not for you
or your pitiful name
you thought i would didn’t you?

Thought I’d carve it in
write your name on my arm
like i did onto my heart
see the blood curl around each letter
drip down into sweet sorrow
no, those were only tears
cos that’s all I’ll give you

nothing was worth it for you
not a word
not even a fuck you
but I’ll give you it anyways

i hope you sit alone
and remember what she did
how she hurt you
and how you hurt me
think of her name
all day and all night long
write another rhyme
cos your to afraid to face up
or be the man
ya, the one you think you are
stop lying to yourself
and especially to me

your not even worth these words
or the way my heart feels
i wish i could just turn it off
like you did to me
so fuck off this is it
not another word I’ll say
not another poem I’ll scrawl
not another tear I’ll cry
this is it for me and you

i only got two words left
fuck you

 

[FixXxer]

nothing was worth it for you
not a word
not even a fuck you
but I’ll give you it anyways
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fucking amazing. u tell em girl!

great writing indeed

 

[E-girl]

i knew your heart
said goodbye
pale skin, no strawberry gashes
no, not this time
i won’t hurt myself

that part i really liked just because of how you said it. but this next part that i'm quoting:

i hope you sit alone
and remember what she did
how she hurt you
and how you hurt me
think of her name
all day and all night long
write another rhyme
cos your to afraid to face up
or be the man
ya, the one you think you are
stop lying to yourself
and especially to me

that is like, a total flashback to my life 3 years ago -- written perfectly as if you were writing it FOR me so i could have had the courage to say "fuck off" then (which i didn't), and i wished all those things on him too.

i hated that asshole -- and the guy you wrote this for too.

 

[beanpoophead]

^^^

thanks guys! writing for me right now its hard because he was the first person (pretty much) that i let read my poems that i knew in real life. so the encouragement really helps out because when he was a dick and lied it felt like everything was a lie including when he said my poems were amazing.

 

[cherub]

Girl you work is amazing,,,,, you will keep growing and growning,,,,, probably seeing your work from 5 yrs now definately being published,,, if that is what you seek,, either way i think you have a handle on the words written even though some of the writting hurts.

* hugs*