I'm a 32 year old on benzos for 20 yrs on opiates for 15 yrs an heroin for the last two years.
I began cutting my benzo back down 7yrs ago an did well then I got a rough job an started increasing my opiate intake an then got on heroin 2 yrs ago.
I'm 5 months off of heroin now. An used morphine to help with withdrawals. I've tapered my morphine intake from 160 mgs a day down to 20 mgs a day sometimes less. I'm only on .25 mgs of Clonazepam now but I do take 900 mg of gabapentin an 8 mg of zanaflex.
It's a pretty fucked situation being on benzos and opiates but I haven't given up.
I'm still have zero energy, tons of anxiety, depression and still having minor withdrawals sometimes an can't sleep but overall it feels good to be getting further from the desperation of heroin.
I'm trying to stay positive.
I want to get off the morphine but taking a small amount doesn't get me any kind of high but does keep me from feeling out of control. So I think I need it or I should be ready for buprenorphine but at the same time feel I'm doing really well with the morphine. Either way I don't think going cold sober is a good idea. I have a life an can't afford to go hole up in a rehab, wish I could but I'm broke barley make rent let alone insurance.
I began cutting my benzo back down 7yrs ago an did well then I got a rough job an started increasing my opiate intake an then got on heroin 2 yrs ago.
I'm 5 months off of heroin now. An used morphine to help with withdrawals. I've tapered my morphine intake from 160 mgs a day down to 20 mgs a day sometimes less. I'm only on .25 mgs of Clonazepam now but I do take 900 mg of gabapentin an 8 mg of zanaflex.
It's a pretty fucked situation being on benzos and opiates but I haven't given up.
I'm still have zero energy, tons of anxiety, depression and still having minor withdrawals sometimes an can't sleep but overall it feels good to be getting further from the desperation of heroin.
I'm trying to stay positive.
I want to get off the morphine but taking a small amount doesn't get me any kind of high but does keep me from feeling out of control. So I think I need it or I should be ready for buprenorphine but at the same time feel I'm doing really well with the morphine. Either way I don't think going cold sober is a good idea. I have a life an can't afford to go hole up in a rehab, wish I could but I'm broke barley make rent let alone insurance.