Hello Jackie Chan,
In response to your original question I would have to say that I would find it incredibly hard to befriend someone who smelt strongly of anything malodorous, and I wish that wasn't so but it is
I really felt for you as I read your posts, and your situation will likely be one of those very occasional 'someone-on-the-message-board' tales that stays in my mind for a long time. I can't imagine how totally fucked it must be.
It's great that you are going for a multilevel approach with treating your condition and the secondary conditions, such as psychological and social effects, and I really hope that you get a lot from this.
Sending you positivity, light and hope
I hope this doesn't sound silly, or like I am taking the piss, because I am not, but as I read I kept wondering about the same few things and wanted to ask you.
Do you have a pet? Specifically I wonder do you have a dog??
How do dogs (or other animals) react to your smell? Are they keen to be in physical proximity to you?
It may sound really twee and a bit simplistic or silly, and I know that it can't ever replace actual human friendships by any stretch, but maybe a four-legger could enhance your life?? Just a thought anyway.
Another thing that I wondered about was if you can swim? As in, what effect swimming in salty or chlorinated water has on the smell, both during and post activity? And can you actually, physically swim?
Again, I realise that even if the smell would subsist whilst submerged or whatever, you can't very well turn into a mermaid/man and live the life aquatic, but I just wondered if perhaps this might be an activity that you could do to meet others and be free from the anxiety of smelling bad, at least during activity time.
Employment wise, what about working in a smelly environment?? That would suck for you, having to smell the garbage/sewerage/fertiliser plant/abbatoirs/mushroom farm/fish cannery or whatever it was that you were around, but it may make employment and the social aspects of occupation possible for you, again in an environment where you don't have to feel as anxious about your body odour. You're clearly quite articulate and intelligent from the writing in your posts, and in some ways it may mean taking a job that is far below your intellectual capability, but the benefits that meaningful occupation could provide might outweigh that for you.
Lastly, is there anything at all that a person who wanted to take the time to spend time with you could do to attempt to mask the smell a bit? Like the stuff that you put under your nose in mortuaries for example? I'm sure you've tried everything in this regard, but I am still curious to know, and hope you don't mind my asking.
I'll keep an eye on this thread to see if you reply, though if you'd prefer you are welcome to PM me instead.
Truly wishing you all the good things, keep on trying
xx