wellsmegan
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- Sep 20, 2013
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My husband and I have been taking high doses of tramadol for about 6 months. Up until the day before yesterday, neither of us had ever had any negative experiences with the tramadol. But on Saturday night, at about 10:30 pm while we were laying in bed, my husband had tonic-clonic(grand mal) seizure right next to me. It was the most terrifying thing I've ever witnessed. the actually seizure only lasted about 60-90 seconds, followed by about 5 minutes of confusion, but after that, he was 100% back to normal (except for biting a gash into his tongue) he almost didn't believe what I told him because, though he didn't remember anything, he felt completely healthy and normal. no headache, no muscle aches, no cloudy or fuzzy feeling, nothing. and that continued on into yesterday as well. we had a completely normal Sunday like nothing ever happened and he felt fine. let me add also that I did not call 911 during the seizure because I am a medical professional and know that as long aa the patient didnt hurt themselves during the seizure, there's really nothing anyone can do for a seizure except try to figure out what caused it, and I already knew what caused it. the tramadol. we both took more than normal that night. Anyway, my husband is fine. he's completely gotten over it and it's not affecting him at all. both of us wanted to quit the tramadol right then and there but we know that writing cold turkey would possibly only envoke more seizures, so we started the tapering process yesterday, and I also have him taking gabapentin for its antI convulsion properties. what my question is is, how do I get over this? my husband is completely fine like nothing ever happened, but I feel traumatized. I can't go 5 minutes without replaying the terrifying scenario in my head and almost having a panic attack. I'm following him around like a puppy dog because I'm afraid of another seizure and I want to be there to catch him. Ialmost wouldn't even let him take a shower yesterday. I'm miserable. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't think about anything else. Will things ever go back to normal? Will I ever be able to look at my husband again withouts imagining his eyes rolling in the back of his head and his body violently convulsing? I feel like I'm never going to get over it. can anyone offer me any kind of hope? please? I just want to be normal again
