Help! Told my therapist i still inject ketamine

[annehedonia]

She isn't an addiction therapist and even my addiction therapist at the worst of my iv heroin addiction quit on me but she's mostly experienced in trauma and eating disorders so my severe intravenous past/still iving k might be a little out of her depth. I'm very honest and told her I still struggle w ketamine but today I ripped off the bandaid accidentally and said I still shoot it and I'm just nervous since she already thinks I need more care they might try to break confidentially if they deem that too dangerous or risky I've told her harm reduction helps me and I suggested I go back to the needle exchange and see what councilor type resources they have since it's more they're Forte but maybe I'm just paranoid but I'm nervous she/her boss will determine that I need something more severe idk how thats even ethical if it's my choice I just want to be able to be honest and get support and I'm really proud of how much better and healthier I am even if I do still inject ketamine

 

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[annehedonia]

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According to what I've looked up and got from her I'm not sure if she'll consider it life threatening since my perspective is really different than hers she told me when I was drinking with the k that that combo is dangerous and if I still was doing that she'd have to something I forgot sadly and I'm not sure what she would do like inform medical help since I don't need that I don't think she can inform my family or work but I'm not sure what her next steps would be if I'm too hard of a case for her hopefully she'll just let me switch to the needle exchange and I'll just tell her I'll go there, I feel like it's a weird Grey area idk if she'll personally feel like she needs to do something just bc me still iving k to her seems worse than it is because I'm genuinely a million times safer than I used to be I used to inject buproprion with giant ass hospital syringes so I'm not really willing quite yet to stop injecting k so idk why I told her I'm just super honest and genuinely forgot I had been omitting that since I talked abt past iv use I didn't realize I hadn't been honest about the present k iv use but now I'm just stressed abt what she'll feel obligated to do if she feels I'm at risk/ dangerous with my behavior bc she definitely thinks it's worse than it is and when I explain it's super safe and harm reduction helps me she probably just thinks I'm an addict rationalizing and if so that should be my choice

 

[fastandbulbous]

According to what I've looked up and got from her I'm not sure if she'll consider it life threatening since my perspective is really different than hers she told me when I was drinking with the k that that combo is dangerous and if I still was doing that she'd have to something I forgot sadly and I'm not sure what she would do like inform medical help since I don't need that I don't think she can inform my family or work but I'm not sure what her next steps would be if I'm too hard of a case for her hopefully she'll just let me switch to the needle exchange and I'll just tell her I'll go there, I feel like it's a weird Grey area idk if she'll personally feel like she needs to do something just bc me still iving k to her seems worse than it is because I'm genuinely a million times safer than I used to be I used to inject buproprion with giant ass hospital syringes so I'm not really willing quite yet to stop injecting k so idk why I told her I'm just super honest and genuinely forgot I had been omitting that since I talked abt past iv use I didn't realize I hadn't been honest about the present k iv use but now I'm just stressed abt what she'll feel obligated to do if she feels I'm at risk/ dangerous with my behavior bc she definitely thinks it's worse than it is and when I explain it's super safe and harm reduction helps me she probably just thinks I'm an addict rationalizing and if so that should be my choice

As someone who joked about 'three strikes and you're out", with a psychologist, after my third sectioning, she told me that it's only if I actively persue ending my life, that a section/telling others is ethical, or people who indulge in extreme sports etc would be filling up psychiatric hospitals (this is after telling her that there is no other way of stopping extreme phantom limb pain, other than ketamine and it is so fucking overpowering, that even IMing ketamine sometimes takes too long to work; not that I am ever going to IV it, because I'm frightened of needles. That's not my usual flippant approach: seeing a needle go into flesh really turns my stomach. You can IM things without having to watch the needle go in, just look away at the last moment). Besides, I did tell her that there was no chance of me taking my own life because a) if there is an afterlife, my mrs would be well pissed off at leaving the two cats we rescued and b) there are still lots of people that I want to really piss off, in this realm...