PartyVicksen
Bluelighter
Once again so misled by you
Once again betrayed by my own intuition
Once again encouraged to believe you were the answer to my questions
Once again led on by masked intentions
Once again asked to trust, to believe in something that my heart just did not buy into
Once again asked to play the part of the fool, a mere puppet held by the strings of its heart
Once again telling myself that I am too good, too valuable to be wasted on a situation like this
Once again torn between my head and my heart, one of which is breaking
Once again refusing to subject myself to any more of this ridiculous confusion
Once again hearing you spit out the same lies, then excuses, then requests for forgiveness
Once again I tell myself that I'm done with these juvenile games and the adolescent himself
For the first time I actually follow my own advice
For the first time I allowed my feelings and emotions manifest into a very convincing force
For the first time my self-esteem has actually helped me to leave this cold, all-too-familiar place
For the first time I realize that it most definately is not me who has the problems
For the first time I can look you in the eye and tell you exactly what is on my mind
For the first time I know this to be true:
I have always been too good for you
I have always been this strong inside but I never knew how to tap into my strength
I have always been taken for granted, but those days are long gone
I have always known deep down that you do not deserve my attention or concern
I have always questioned my faith in you, and now I know that it was for a very good reason
I thank you for this opportunity, for it has not only made me a stronger person, it has made you weaker
I thank you for the times we spent together arguing and especially for the time you wasted trying to break me down
I thank you for the lessons you have taught me about loyalty, trust, compromise, and respect, for these are things that I know you shall never possess
I thank you for making a fool of yourself while I emerge victorious
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~~~This is my church.. this is where I heal my hurts.. for tonight, God is a DJ~~~
[This message has been edited by PartyVicksen (edited 06 December 2000).]
Once again betrayed by my own intuition
Once again encouraged to believe you were the answer to my questions
Once again led on by masked intentions
Once again asked to trust, to believe in something that my heart just did not buy into
Once again asked to play the part of the fool, a mere puppet held by the strings of its heart
Once again telling myself that I am too good, too valuable to be wasted on a situation like this
Once again torn between my head and my heart, one of which is breaking
Once again refusing to subject myself to any more of this ridiculous confusion
Once again hearing you spit out the same lies, then excuses, then requests for forgiveness
Once again I tell myself that I'm done with these juvenile games and the adolescent himself
For the first time I actually follow my own advice
For the first time I allowed my feelings and emotions manifest into a very convincing force
For the first time my self-esteem has actually helped me to leave this cold, all-too-familiar place
For the first time I realize that it most definately is not me who has the problems
For the first time I can look you in the eye and tell you exactly what is on my mind
For the first time I know this to be true:
I have always been too good for you
I have always been this strong inside but I never knew how to tap into my strength
I have always been taken for granted, but those days are long gone
I have always known deep down that you do not deserve my attention or concern
I have always questioned my faith in you, and now I know that it was for a very good reason
I thank you for this opportunity, for it has not only made me a stronger person, it has made you weaker
I thank you for the times we spent together arguing and especially for the time you wasted trying to break me down
I thank you for the lessons you have taught me about loyalty, trust, compromise, and respect, for these are things that I know you shall never possess
I thank you for making a fool of yourself while I emerge victorious
------------------
~~~This is my church.. this is where I heal my hurts.. for tonight, God is a DJ~~~
[This message has been edited by PartyVicksen (edited 06 December 2000).]
