This is 100% true. I say this first because a lot of people I tell this to don't believe me, even some doctors. None of this makes sense and though I don't really feel like there's much hope for help here I need to get this out on the slim chance there's someone who's heard of it.
I wasn't a heavy drug user. In February this year I took MDMA for the second time and had a bad trip with hallucinations etc. A month later, in March, after drinking a cup of coffee I began to feel the same euphoria as though I'd taken a small amount of MDMA. It shocked me at the time but I thought it'd pass. It didn't. Over the next month or so these episodes got more frequent and increased in strength until I was on a constant 'high'.
Now the feeling in my chest is almost unbearable. It's the same kind of 'pleasurable' sensation as usual but it's so intense it's agony. I'm completely exhausted all of the time, I can't sleep, my mental abilities are dropping rapidly. I'm having memory gaps of hours and I feel so distant from everything it's like a very faint, claustrophobic dream. I'm completely non-functioning and spend every day just lying down. I've got very bad visual snow, so much that it's affecting my sight. It's all still getting worse.
I've seen a lot of doctors about this. None of them have any idea what it is or how to treat it. Every drug I've taken (diazepam, sodium valproate, quetiapine) has made the 'high' worse, as if taking another dose of MDMA. They're going to try olanzapine next, and the psychiatrist prescribing it basically told me that if this doesn't work then nothing will.
I don't know what to do. I hate hearing from every new doctor that they have no idea. Every single day is agony - I would do anything to make the feeling stop. Does anyone here have any idea at all, or know anyone who might? This is just insane and I can't be the only one on the planet to have ever experienced this.
I wasn't a heavy drug user. In February this year I took MDMA for the second time and had a bad trip with hallucinations etc. A month later, in March, after drinking a cup of coffee I began to feel the same euphoria as though I'd taken a small amount of MDMA. It shocked me at the time but I thought it'd pass. It didn't. Over the next month or so these episodes got more frequent and increased in strength until I was on a constant 'high'.
Now the feeling in my chest is almost unbearable. It's the same kind of 'pleasurable' sensation as usual but it's so intense it's agony. I'm completely exhausted all of the time, I can't sleep, my mental abilities are dropping rapidly. I'm having memory gaps of hours and I feel so distant from everything it's like a very faint, claustrophobic dream. I'm completely non-functioning and spend every day just lying down. I've got very bad visual snow, so much that it's affecting my sight. It's all still getting worse.
I've seen a lot of doctors about this. None of them have any idea what it is or how to treat it. Every drug I've taken (diazepam, sodium valproate, quetiapine) has made the 'high' worse, as if taking another dose of MDMA. They're going to try olanzapine next, and the psychiatrist prescribing it basically told me that if this doesn't work then nothing will.
I don't know what to do. I hate hearing from every new doctor that they have no idea. Every single day is agony - I would do anything to make the feeling stop. Does anyone here have any idea at all, or know anyone who might? This is just insane and I can't be the only one on the planet to have ever experienced this.
