Thoughts during my uncomfortable comedown

[Dr_Gerber_s]

Why do I feel so crappy? What were in those goddamn pills and why do I even take them? If I use drugs to pass the time and feel happy, then is my life even being lived. For a long time I have said that all I think that is important in life is feelings. What other thing can I actually own and attain other then my body and the feelings that I experience. The highs are amazing the lows. . . not so much.

After drinking, tripping, or rolling, I feel so alone and so uncomfortable in my body and mind the next day or two. Having typed that last sentence I really want to know why I keep doing this to myself? I do not plan on stopping anytime soon, why should I?

I mean I know a sober life isnt going to kill me but it sure as hell feels like it will. I dont know how sober people feel anymore, its been a long time since I have had even a week of sobriety. No point in this post really (..sorry) I just needed to get it off my chest and I feel better knowing other people may read it.

 

[stardust.hero]

One day the feelings you are talking about in your post--the feelings of loneliness and uncomfortableness will become too much and greatly outweigh the short segment of time that the drug makes you feel good. That was my turning point.