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Thought quitting would save me money...

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Hello

recently i decided to stop using the hard drugs that i was becoming heavily addicted to, which was all well and good and has generally helped my mood (though i still do them very occasionally.) Part of the reason that i stopped what simply that i couldn't afford it anymore, coke is EXTREMELY expensive especially when you're doing a couple grams per week without having any sort of job or real income. When i stopped, i thought that i'd have a lot more money in my pocket to actually buy myself things that weren't drugs, but i've noticed that i seem to spend all of that extra money on other random drugs, or stupid shit in general.

How can i get over this mentality that i have where i have the compulsion to always spend ALL of my money on drugs even though i'm not using my DOC anymore?
is spending addictive? i really don't want to be doing it...

thanks
 
Do you have any bills? My desire to live in a room with heat and eat at night has always stopped me from wasting all my money on drugs.
 
Quitting drugs really helps when a person is trying to quit drugs. I'm not trying to be glib, but when a person uses "less serious" drugs with the same frequency as their "DOC" and spends all their money on it they are missing the point of quitting drugs. Don't believe that alcohol is "better" than opiates which are "better" than coke which is "better" than meth etc. They're all a waste of time and money.
And yes shopping can turn into an addiction as well.

Start exercising. Working-out is one of the best ways to try and make your life healthy once again. It works all parts of your being, not just your muscles. Plus it will give you less actual time to worry about wasting money on dumb things. It will give you naturally occurring chemicals to help make you feel good anyway. It's totally win win.
 
i'm a teenager and come from a fairly well-to-do family (i REALLY hate having to say that, but i thought it would come up eventually,) so yeah.

however, my parents have started suspecting things and drastically reduced the amount of money i was given, so those 5 grams for one weekend days are over, probably for good.

and coffee drinker, you're totally right. what sucks so hard about addiction at a young age is that i really don't want to be giving up all drugs, unfortunately they are one of the main ways everyone my age relates to each other, and to be honest not changing my mental state in some capacity is really not realistic for me.
 
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i'm a teenager and come from a fairly well-to-do family (i REALLY hate having to say that, but i thought it would come up eventually,) so yeah.

however, my parents have started suspecting things and drastically reduced the amount of money i was given, so those 5 grams for one weekend days are over, probably for good.

and coffee drinker, you're totally right. what sucks so hard about addiction at a young age is that i really don't want to be giving up all drugs, unfortunately they are one of the main ways everyone my age relates to each other, and to be honest not changing my mental state in some capacity is really not realistic for me.
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You'll grow out of it I think.

I spent every available penny on drugs when I was a teenager as well. Once you enter the "real world" things change a bit.

I wouldn't use this as an excuse to keep on doing it, feeling bad about your actions is a catalyst to change them.
 
Yes spending can be an "addiction", any behaviour can be used in in this manner. Some people like the rush of it, or the distraction it provides, or the temporary satisfaction of having acquired whatever they purchased.

What is your state of mind when you are spending on other things? If you are bored, lonely, anxious, etc., then you will just need to find other ways of being able to experience these feelings without having to distract yourself.

But don't necessarily expect ALL your behaviour to change at once, we have all sorts of habits and false comforts that we are not even aware of.
 
Legerity said:
Yes spending can be an "addiction", any behaviour can be used in in this manner. Some people like the rush of it, or the distraction it provides, or the temporary satisfaction of having acquired whatever they purchased.

What is your state of mind when you are spending on other things? If you are bored, lonely, anxious, etc., then you will just need to find other ways of being able to experience these feelings without having to distract yourself.

But don't necessarily expect ALL your behaviour to change at once, we have all sorts of habits and false comforts that we are not even aware of.
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i just really love buying them, having a big dude pick me up at my house in a cadillac made my feel really important, as fucked up as that is.

also i like being high....=D

i'm a pretty depressed person i guess, i like the feeling of empathy and connection i have with others when i'm wired on the pills & blows
 
i just really love buying them, having a big dude pick me up at my house in a cadillac made my feel really important, as fucked up as that is.
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One day you'll realize on the scale of importance "drug customer" is about as low as is gets on societies scale. But hey, at least your helping dude pay off the Caddy.
 
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i just really love buying them, having a big dude pick me up at my house in a cadillac made my feel really important, as fucked up as that is.

also i like being high....=D

i'm a pretty depressed person i guess, i like the feeling of empathy and connection i have with others when i'm wired on the pills & blows
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Yeah I can relate to that...that has always been one of my main reasons for using drugs, to feel that connection with people. But I can assure you that you will be able to achieve this without them if you focus on this :)
 
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One day you'll realize on the scale of importance "drug customer" is about as low as is gets on societies scale. But hey, at least your helping dude pay off the Caddy.
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I guess most of us are pretty low based on society's standards, eh? What exactly are these standards again...make money, consume, be productive, look good, fit in, do as we are told? Oh yeah, that's some really meaningful stuff there ;)
 
Well my man I'd say just take care of your shit, and don't buy into any mental tricks that try to get you become lazy, or late to things like work or appointments or meeting with friends, or careless. Take pride in your control over your life and don't overdo your drug use.
Don't get high all day, every day. It cheapens the drug experience, and makes you okay with being bored and unproductive, not to mention the legal side of it, the social side of it, and the financial side of it.
Balancedness and moderation are wonderful things.
Prepare yourself for the real world now, at a young age.
I was a daily opiate addict by 16 and I regret losing that valuable time by not evolving my social skills and other mental skills and relying on drugs to feel good about myself and what I'm about.
I still will smoke about an 8th of weed a week, and do some other drugs on occasion if they are free or someone is cutting me a good deal, but I am slowly getting more comfortable in my own skin and I love going totally sober for long stretches of time and exercise and get in good shape and experience different things than the boring old "waiting for a phone call from my fucked-up dealers, and then dealing with scumbags or dumbasses for most of an entire day" type thing.
Improving your lot in life isn't all that hard, and you shouldn't be afraid of the daily grind that is life because it's just toughening you up slowly but surely. That's all anyone can really do, sober or not.
Once you take good care of your mind, issues like spending too much money on unimportant things, or feeling uncomfortable in your own skin, or worrying about what you're doing in life, and all the rest of it will fall into place. Just keep your mind on the positive. Don't quit drufgs just for the sake of quitting drugs, but because you want to actively do something better in life. :)
 
Take up a hobby and spend all your money on shiny new toys related to that hobby.

While I have not yet quit from marijuana and opiates, I have managed to drastically cut down on how much I take after I took up, of all things, bass fishing. I now absolutely love to fish, and often drop $200+ on a baitcasting fishing reel, or a few hundred on new baits. This leaves me with much less money to buy drugs with, but I'm cool with that because now I've found something else I love. Collecting cool stuff related to a hobby can be quite addictive as well.

I think I've gone from a quad of weed a week, about 30 mgs of amphetamine salts a day, and pretty much 60mg oxycodone every day down to maybe an eighth of weed a week. I now go through about 120 mg of oxycodone in a month - I take like 30-40 mgs for a light trip every now and then for kicks and relaxation. I have completely quit amphetamines.
 
when i quit drinking, i started making a lot of meals at home, and spent just about the same amount on good foods as i had been spending drinking. now i've got that under control pretty well. it is sometimes a pretty odd feeling being able to save money.
 
i know in my conscious mind how insane this is, but somehow i'm always convincing myself that it's okay to buy any drug as long as it's not the one i was/am addicted to.

part of my mind will say to me, "you know, it's totally okay to smoke some opium and take a shitload of pills, at least you're not doing coke!"
 
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i know in my conscious mind how insane this is, but somehow i'm always convincing myself that it's okay to buy any drug as long as it's not the one i was/am addicted to.

part of my mind will say to me, "you know, it's totally okay to smoke some opium and take a shitload of pills, at least you're not doing coke!"
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Yeah, I'm like this too. Opiates seemed like a god-send this summer, after spending 1.5 years battling my body with Mephedrone. So clean, not bad for you, no comedown/hangover, feel really really good when on them, and not even THAT addictive...For a few months. Once my dependency started to build though, I freaked out and got off 12 days ago. Good riddance, but now there's another drug I ought to avoid. And there's literally nothing to replace them which I don't have a history with already. Weed, alcohol, psychedelics, dissociatives, stimulants, benzos. All been there, abused that, very little interest in any except benzos and opiates now, as they make me feel 'normal' and don't exacerbate the bad effects from all the other drugs I've abused. :\ Yet ultimately are the worst drugs in terms of addiction...
 
nervousone said:
You'll grow out of it I think.

I spent every available penny on drugs when I was a teenager as well. Once you enter the "real world" things change a bit.

I wouldn't use this as an excuse to keep on doing it, feeling bad about your actions is a catalyst to change them.
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I never used drugs as a teenager & thank goodness for that because my brain was still developing. I have seen kids using heavy drugs in highschool & in the later years, some of them just seem as dumb as a brick. Didnt get into weed until I was 21 but one thing I never did is use alot of money on drugs or alcohol. Gotta have some form of balance in your life I suppose.
 
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