cosmicjive
Greenlighter
- Joined
- May 24, 2014
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Hello. I'm excited to be a part of this community.
It's ironic, really, that (though I've "lurked" around this site for many moons for research purposes) it wasn't until I stopped using drugs that I started using this fantastic site. I suppose I was just too "busy" before.
So...what to say? I dislike introductions...they always seem so contrived; so I'll try to be as genuine (and brief) as possible.
On May 5th I ended a two year relationship with heroin. Of course, H wasn't the first date I went on. Before that and simultaneous to, I had been using Dilaudid and Opana for several years to combat the pain from a battle with endometriosis and adhesive disease that lasted many years. Obviously, before the Dilaudid and the Opana, there were many others...starting with Vicodin and moving up the latter to oxy, etc. But after many, many surgeries and procedures, the Dilaudid and the Opana seemed to work the best. And then I had to go fuck things up and start banging H. I wasn't new to I'ving when I started H, but I had been able to control my habit much more successfully when doing just the Dilaudid and the Opana. I am a professor, and before starting H, I managed to work, write, keep up with my students and the faculty, etc. with very few problems. But then I took a medical leave for several months to have a string of surgeries. I had a lot of time on my hands while "recovering". The H got out of control. And you know what happens next...
At the beginning of May (well, maybe more like the end of April) I was hospitalized for a staff infection (that sprung up from an injection site, of course). My condition was obvious, there was no hiding it from the doctors, so I decided to fess up and take responsibility for myself and my addiction. A week and a half after the surgery and hospital stay, I started Suboxone and treatment and I haven't looked back.
Of course, that's just my drug history. I don't let it define who I am. So, having said that, I look forward to getting to many of you as time goes on.
-CJ
It's ironic, really, that (though I've "lurked" around this site for many moons for research purposes) it wasn't until I stopped using drugs that I started using this fantastic site. I suppose I was just too "busy" before.
So...what to say? I dislike introductions...they always seem so contrived; so I'll try to be as genuine (and brief) as possible.
On May 5th I ended a two year relationship with heroin. Of course, H wasn't the first date I went on. Before that and simultaneous to, I had been using Dilaudid and Opana for several years to combat the pain from a battle with endometriosis and adhesive disease that lasted many years. Obviously, before the Dilaudid and the Opana, there were many others...starting with Vicodin and moving up the latter to oxy, etc. But after many, many surgeries and procedures, the Dilaudid and the Opana seemed to work the best. And then I had to go fuck things up and start banging H. I wasn't new to I'ving when I started H, but I had been able to control my habit much more successfully when doing just the Dilaudid and the Opana. I am a professor, and before starting H, I managed to work, write, keep up with my students and the faculty, etc. with very few problems. But then I took a medical leave for several months to have a string of surgeries. I had a lot of time on my hands while "recovering". The H got out of control. And you know what happens next...
At the beginning of May (well, maybe more like the end of April) I was hospitalized for a staff infection (that sprung up from an injection site, of course). My condition was obvious, there was no hiding it from the doctors, so I decided to fess up and take responsibility for myself and my addiction. A week and a half after the surgery and hospital stay, I started Suboxone and treatment and I haven't looked back.
Of course, that's just my drug history. I don't let it define who I am. So, having said that, I look forward to getting to many of you as time goes on.
-CJ
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