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This is killing me!

METHAMPHEDAMAN

METHAMPHEDAMAN

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Well this week I had to fly out to Phoenix with my dad to see some family of mine, I'm dieing out here! All I can think about is meth, and I can't get any cuz I'm out of my home city. What do I do?! Ps I'm fucking desperate!!!
 
If you truly truly want to be sober, I'd advise asking help from your family or friends. And if neither can give the support you need, check into a rehab facility. I've been clean off of meth now for 2 months and I literally had to get to the point where I decided that if I continued on that path, it would kill me. And I decided right then and there if I wanted my life to end at that point. And I knew that I didn't. Then the decision to become sober was concrete and it made the process so much easier than it had ever been before. I know it sounds silly, but you really just have to get yourself in that mindset.
 
just force yourself through it, the cravings are going to be strong, they'll fade. You just have to accept that you'll be dying to get high for a little while. It is a lot better than shitting/puking/being restless for 2 weeks so you can get through it, try to find something else to do and if not, just grin and bear it. Drink some coffee, might help a tiny a bit.
 
Distracting yourself is key. If you're sitting at home, alone, bored, your mind will have nothing to do except crave. Don't set yourself up for failure. :)
 
Well in my opinion, yes I am having Horrid withdrawals, I have been for quite some time. When I'm not high I feel like throwing up and all kinds of shit like that
 
I don't have experience with amphetamine related cravings really, but you got to find other stuff to do, and the thing is you WILL, in due time. At least that is what I've seen on my own path to sobriety so far. The beginning is just a complete bitch, expect it to be and then realize it will fade and die out like the smoldering embers of a camp fire trailing away. You got to give it a little time, but then once you know you aren't doing as bad fill your non-high time with anything you can think......its a bitch but its the only way to re-train our brains.

I really have been thinking about that approach, that the only way to complete happy recovery is to re-train our brains because we trained em with drugs, and we can train them a different way now that we want to be sober.

I really like modelskinny's input too about knowing deep down that something will kill you eventually, I can relate to that with H, since it was literally sucking my very life force away every time I did it......eventually we realize whether we want to live or die, and then it is quite simple. Not that I never crave anymore!!! I'm not perfect! But I'll be damned if I'm going to cash in my chips now and just roll over and flop down the dark hole I've dug......nah I want to keep going down this road, because it feels different this time. :D

Isn't that what life is all about anyway? I guess the ones who never realize or accept that they are BORED TO DEATH with drugs (no pun intended) are the really unlucky ones......yeah, getting fucked up really does get fuckin old!!! Who would have ever imagined???

lol im sure my insomnia is shimmering through into my posts, whatever.
 
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