Think I'm Addicted?

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I've been doing Charge lately -that legal, synthetic cocaine that nobody knows what it's made of- and while I don't consider myself to have done much, I think I might be forming some kind of dependance on it. I have a friend who claims it's very addictive, but I never took him seriously until I found I could close my eyes and imagine myself in such fine detail breaking down the powder into lines. From there I can almost smell it and taste it in the back of my throat. Then I get this antsy feeling, I notice my heart starts to beat, and I'm honestly starting to get upset just thinking about it. It's been weeks since I last tried it, and it's not like I crave it 24/7, but I keep thinking about it, and then all those feelings come up.

I suppose it doesn't take a genius to say I should probably stay away from it, but I REALLY want to try it again. And probably again. Does this sound serious? >>;

 

[Lolie]

Yes it sounds serious, especially if you're already anticipating the whole ritual of taking the drug and not just its effects. Keep in mind that most people whose lives have been taken over by a substance didn't start out as daily users.

When people talk about drugs like crack and meth being instantly addictive what they're talking about is how mentally seductive they are - that the feeling they induce the first time they're used is so great that people will want to do them again.

Sounds like you're in danger of developing a love affair with your synthetic coke, so be careful.

 

[Legerity]

I've never heard of that stuff. You didn't specify how often or for how long you have been using it.

What stopped you from using it over the past few weeks? If you want something and are able to get it, but still have the self-control to not do it, then that's a good thing. If you've wanted to do it for weeks but didn't because you couldn't find any, then that's a different story.

Nobody can tell you if it is a problem. The fact that crave and think about it shows that there is potential for dependence. But it could also be that it is new to you and so the novelty has not worn off yet.

Things are not black and white, where you are either addicted or not. There is a continuum between "abstinence" and "complete loss of control". If you feel that you will end up closer to losing control, then maybe it's best to stay away from it.