these last days make the heart grow weak

i wonder why i keep going...not much to do...i'd like to fight but there is no fight, i'd probably just get beat up or walk away and that thought made me sad today.

i quit my job a few days ago and it wasn't the best thing ever. it made me serene and just a void.

do these people exist?

or are they just a dream.

 

It's interesting how feeling serene and feeling empty are basically the same, just with a different conscious interpretation or context.

I've toyed with solipism (the philosophy/worldview which states that everything other than your conscious experience is an illusion) on occasion in my youth. The conclusion that I came to was that while it isn't disprovable, the reality in which we are immersed is convincing and self-consistent enough to be considered the same is being objective. In essence that the distinction between solipism and functional realism being more or less moot. IMO at least

Hope you feel well soon.