Nietzche
Bluelighter
Authorial preface: Ok, so I kind of feel bad that this poem is not quite as good as the last one, but aww hell! I was just tooo damned excited to get it out! The last poem was writen, in part, during the week I speak of here . . . I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I did writing it. :D
So many changes
I had to confront
To get used to my station
I thought would take months!
But I needed only a week
To stop hiding from my ghosts
To face them head on
And make of them the most.
I stood on the ledge
But chose not to jump,
I just needed some time
To get over the hump.
To battle the demons
That raged in my heart;
To return to my friends
I needed a new start.
When anguish and torment
Rear their ugly heads
I won’t avoid the problems
But face them instead.
I now understand
That in trying leave
I was making a mistake
And now I believe, that
Without my struggle
I would have gone wrong
But addressing those questions
Has made my friendships grow strong!
The friends I have kept
Are unquestionably the best!
I’ll keep this group near me
Because I don’t need the rest.
Last week I hit rock bottom
But I pulled myself up from the ground
Because these days I just smile
At the friendships I’ve refound.
I thank you for your patience
I am sorry I was aloof
Making my return
Should be taken as proof!
That you’re still my friends
And I won’t say good bye!
Hanging out with you
Is better than being high! :D
Authorial Interlude: I know that last line is going to get me into some trouble on here . . . :D By the way, those lines are written for my old WJC crew!
but as for the remainder, well you know who you are.
And to the one,
The most picturesque.
I have found the words and
courage to pass the test.
You call me a coward
But this moniker I decline
To build up the courage
Just takes a little time.
I don’t want to hide
Or steer clear of you
But confront you directly
And help me get through.
I am ready to talk
And wish to do it soon
To tell you my story
And rid me my gloom.
[ 08 February 2002: Message edited by: Nietzche ]
So many changes
I had to confront
To get used to my station
I thought would take months!
But I needed only a week
To stop hiding from my ghosts
To face them head on
And make of them the most.
I stood on the ledge
But chose not to jump,
I just needed some time
To get over the hump.
To battle the demons
That raged in my heart;
To return to my friends
I needed a new start.
When anguish and torment
Rear their ugly heads
I won’t avoid the problems
But face them instead.
I now understand
That in trying leave
I was making a mistake
And now I believe, that
Without my struggle
I would have gone wrong
But addressing those questions
Has made my friendships grow strong!
The friends I have kept
Are unquestionably the best!
I’ll keep this group near me
Because I don’t need the rest.
Last week I hit rock bottom
But I pulled myself up from the ground
Because these days I just smile
At the friendships I’ve refound.
I thank you for your patience
I am sorry I was aloof
Making my return
Should be taken as proof!
That you’re still my friends
And I won’t say good bye!
Hanging out with you
Is better than being high! :D
Authorial Interlude: I know that last line is going to get me into some trouble on here . . . :D By the way, those lines are written for my old WJC crew!
but as for the remainder, well you know who you are.And to the one,
The most picturesque.
I have found the words and
courage to pass the test.
You call me a coward
But this moniker I decline
To build up the courage
Just takes a little time.
I don’t want to hide
Or steer clear of you
But confront you directly
And help me get through.
I am ready to talk
And wish to do it soon
To tell you my story
And rid me my gloom.
[ 08 February 2002: Message edited by: Nietzche ]
