the wall

[beanpoophead]

That wall was built on years and years of pain
months and months of writing down their names in notebooks
weeks and weeks of holding onto something small
days and days of wondering if they’ll ever call
hours and hours of waiting for that ring ding

and you broke it down
i never put it up for you
i never thought twice
all the tears i cried
you helped me to dry

and you said i was beautiful
despite all the scars on my heart
despite all the things the others said
you never gave a damn
about what anybody thought
cos you called me out

and you never hurt me
not a bruise ever laid
not a hand ever raised
except the cuts on my heart
that pour the blood of your name
when you gave it all away
the lies broken down before your eyes

and you always told me i was smart
i could be so much more
i could get out of this shit hole place
put a name to my pretty face
you made me believe
that there was something about me
i was special in some way
you said i was meant to be

and i couldn’t open my eyes
when i kissed you
when i thought of you
to afraid that id blink and it would be gone
now i cant stop wondering
whether your eyes were open or closed
what your soul said
when mine couldn’t speak
from what your mouth said

for years the wall will stay now
because of the months of seeing you
the weeks of actually being happy
the days where you actually did the call
and the hours we talked

it doesn’t hurt so bad that i lost you
im not quite sure what makes it hurt this bad
maybe its cos of your lies
or maybe cos of everything you said
that now seems like lies
i wonder if i called your bullshit
or even if you’d care
that you broke the wall down for me
that has never been broken before
smashed into a million pieces
at your feet
you took them and remodeled it
into what it is today
something bigger than ever before
the wall built around my heart

the worst part is
i wish you were here
to make it all seem ok

 

[FixXxer]

" the worst part is
i wish you were here
to make it all seem ok "

...true shit.
i found after i lost my gf, she changed me alot. i hate her for playing me the way she did. but i only wanted HER to comfort me, it was odd, but my parents were a huge help. Thank god they cared, or id prolly be livin in a ditch of shit rite now.

Great Poem... yet again

 

[Taliana]

Beautifully written. Its so heartfelt and emotive, but so well written, damn girl you have talent.

 

[katmeow]

the worst part is
i wish you were here
to make it all seem ok

So damn true & god it sucks!

 

[cherub]

The walls we build in life and with whom come in different sizes,,, hopefully you find a balance for all part of your life with your walls.

This is a continuation of your good work.